paradoxes are my element. i make sense making senseless remarks.
was browsing throught blogs and i thought it was time to blog. :) somehow i'm not exactly in the best of moods today. i think i am PMSing. no one's online coz they all out and not home. so it does get lonely. i realised that there is a part of me that wants to become a fatalistic recluse. and the other side of me that just wants to be the centre of attention. and these 2 parts of me are constantly in conflict. i dont know what's triggering this period of slight depression. and i dunno if i'm blogging for attention or what lah.
anyway, today was a completely USELESS day. the only useful things i did today were to print the brilliantly beautiful posters for open house tomoro. but that took a really long time lah. vane is brilliant with adobe. that is as far as i will go before vane's head swells. :P
tomoro i play with the Familiar Mamasans. i am not thrilled. but i dont really want to mind. i mean, i do want to have fun lah. but then it's not easy to play in front of pple without proper pract. ok i guess we are more or less ready, but i am not really ready lah. jamming today was quite bad. yesterday's jamming was very very good lah. i'll tell you all something. in the band i do feel inadequate. my voice is not that brilliant. my guitar skills are not that great. i often feel that the guitar is useless when we perform [it cant be heard] ... i am just launching into some sad, self absorbed attitude. i hope you dont mind me. i am sorry.
and this brings another thought to mind. do i apologise too much? i dunno. i GUESS i do. but then i've been doing that for a really long time. i shall not say much. tell me what you think please!
i met up with stinky today. went to her house for dinner. in all due honesty something was different abt the whole thing today. but it was fun nonetheless.
a well. i am sleepy. going of to sleep now. haha ... bye bye! :)
was browsing throught blogs and i thought it was time to blog. :) somehow i'm not exactly in the best of moods today. i think i am PMSing. no one's online coz they all out and not home. so it does get lonely. i realised that there is a part of me that wants to become a fatalistic recluse. and the other side of me that just wants to be the centre of attention. and these 2 parts of me are constantly in conflict. i dont know what's triggering this period of slight depression. and i dunno if i'm blogging for attention or what lah.
anyway, today was a completely USELESS day. the only useful things i did today were to print the brilliantly beautiful posters for open house tomoro. but that took a really long time lah. vane is brilliant with adobe. that is as far as i will go before vane's head swells. :P
tomoro i play with the Familiar Mamasans. i am not thrilled. but i dont really want to mind. i mean, i do want to have fun lah. but then it's not easy to play in front of pple without proper pract. ok i guess we are more or less ready, but i am not really ready lah. jamming today was quite bad. yesterday's jamming was very very good lah. i'll tell you all something. in the band i do feel inadequate. my voice is not that brilliant. my guitar skills are not that great. i often feel that the guitar is useless when we perform [it cant be heard] ... i am just launching into some sad, self absorbed attitude. i hope you dont mind me. i am sorry.
and this brings another thought to mind. do i apologise too much? i dunno. i GUESS i do. but then i've been doing that for a really long time. i shall not say much. tell me what you think please!
i met up with stinky today. went to her house for dinner. in all due honesty something was different abt the whole thing today. but it was fun nonetheless.
a well. i am sleepy. going of to sleep now. haha ... bye bye! :)
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