ok ... this is starting to get depressing ...

hmm ... guess what ... had a bad day again ... i think my life is plunging into depression ... i dunno what the hell is going on ... but all i know now is i'm too darn scared to be alone ... i need people with me ... shoots ... argh ...

anyway we had TSD GM today ... some scolding, some nice stuff ... but i guess overall the seniors were all right ... i felt partially responsible for the absence of a shut-up crew ... ok not partially, fully ... i hope the seniors wont blame me ... hmm ... even though the scoldings were not directed personally at individuals ... you know, it's like you can sense who that senior's talking about ... hmm ... few times i felt like i was the one they were refering to. sighs ... being the TSD rep's becoming tough ...

ok ... so ... i SHALL make it a point to have a GOOD day tomoro ... have easter rehearsal ... i hope that people will show up ... and they'll be on time ... i just wished i could work more professionally with them ... jene reminded me i'm losing my focus ... i think i need sometime to sort that out as well ... amazing how jene can say so much using so little words ... hmm ...

anyway ... still miss my senior ... (no, it's not you Calin ... sorry :P) i cant meet her on the 3rd coz i got TSD Theatre Slam ... not that i'm complaining, but it really spoiled my hopes i guess ... but ... i SHALL have a GOOD time at Theatre Slam .... c'mon, it's TSD ... it wont be anything less than fun ... :)

so ok ... like i've gotta stop now ... hmm ...

come take me home