loving someone who cannot reciprocate

still on the topic of love, i guess it's a subject many people stay away from. i guess people are afraid of love. it's like a disease you cannot apply a cure to, as Lady Brute in the Provok'd wife might say. i think i am too immature for love. wow ... only coming to that revelation now. slow lah liting, slow. haha ... man ... how do you explain the feeling when you see someone and you start getting butterflies in your tum tum and you feel a sudden surge of happiness? i dunno ... i was hoping you'd know ... coz if it aint love then what is it? if there was someone who could brighten up your day just by being there wherever you are, and it's not as if you guys talk or anything, is it love? maybe some friends have that effect on you. close friends i suppose ... :) but what if it's not as if you are close. what if you just feel that way everytime you see that person? i can tell you something now: you could be reading all these things and not realise it's you i'm talking about. it may be you ... it may not be you ... haha ... who knows? :)

anyway, i felt a sudden urge to go out and get something for my friends today ... and guess what ... hehe ... i did ... :) i love showing people i love them. i guess that's the trouble with me ... i love too much ... and maybe people dont love me as much. but i dont wanna know if i'm loved or not. becoz i know my ego will shoot high up if people start telling me they do. hehe ... but nonetheless, there can never be too much love in the world. there never is enough to go around. that's the sad thing. even as i sit here typing, someone in the united states is being shot to death because of a minor dispute, someone is being abused because their father is drunk, someone is being raped because they have no choice and someone is punished for something they didnt do. Someone is being spat on, someone is getting beaten up, someone is freezing to death, someone is dying of hunger. i know how blessed i am to have a family who loves me, people who care for me, food on the table, spare change somewhere, a school to go to and best of all, i have people to love. that's one thing everyone has. someone to love. so if we all showed the people we love a little bit of what is lacking in this weathered world, we will have enough love to fill the entire world. :) off on one of my tangents again. i hope i didnt bore you. :)

today was quite uneventful, 'cept for the shopping bit. i cldnt get my contacts today. parkway was packed full of brainless, mindless shoppers and so my optician had no time to tend to me. i will be going back soon. then i will join the ranks of contacts wearing people ... who i think must be almost the rest of the world. :) i am looking forward to a new me. :) haha :P

i must be going now. i have work that must be done. studying starts now! now! :)

life is not measured by how many breaths you take, but by the number of moments that take your breath away. you take my breath away just by being there. i know i have life in abundance.

peace out ya'll ... night :)

two hearts beat together underneath one sun