i dont ever wanna feel like i did that day

ok i meant to write what i feel abt the whole issue that was brought up on ana's blog and all the replies and all ... but i will not. i dont know why i'm so worked up by it lah ... but the gist of what i feel is:

iting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
i'm getting quite sick of all this talk of being left out/bitching/pple not caring

beam to bed. says:
hmmf

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
all they know how to do is talk

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
grr ...

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
action pple action!!!!

beam to bed. says:
well what else can they do really

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
do SOMETHING abt it.

beam to bed. says:
liike?

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
you dont want to be left out? dont be anti social

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
you dont want pple to bitch? that you cant do nothing abt it, but you have to accept it. it's not as if you dont bitch abt others. if you want to bitch, then accept it that others will bitch too

beam to bed. says:
true

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
you want pple to care? then let it be known. it's not as if we all have radars to tell if you're alright or not. and if pple dont realise, accept it, let it boil over and move on.

liting's styled hair = exhibit at Louvre. says:
grr ... it's all so simple

there. so now you know how i really feel. i tell you this whole thing is really making something small into a huge problem. maybe i'm making it big for myself, but i tell you if you never brought it up this way i wld have never saw it this way. i know what i'm going to say is going to offend pple, but it has to be said.

this world is cold. it's a well established fact. and man is not infallible. we are bound to make mistakes. you cant blame pple when they are insensitive to your feelings, i shld know, with what pple have said in my face. let the thing boil over and move on. if you keep complaining abt the same old stuff over and over then it will just become stagnant, and you'll be more bitter. as to when you are being left out: well, it might just be becoz you're at the wrong place at the wrong time. you know what? you want the truth? i felt left out at the beginning of this year. some of you knew; you noticed. you were even worried that i was unsettled. lucky for me, new pple came along, and plus i made an effort to try and make things work for me. and then i finally can say that i feel accepted, part of the whole family. it's not all the time, i must say, but at least i do have that security now. you see what i'm getting at? dont be unhappy that you're being left out. if you want that to change, do something abt it. if they dont accept you, then they're not worth your time. i am blessed because i know you all are worth my time, coz you make me feel like one of you. isnt it time you tried to do something abt it rather than just complain??
and bitching. right. pple might say things abt you eh? let them talk! as long as your conscience is clear, what have you got to worry abt? and if you do bitch, then dont complain. if it's your right, it's others' too. look, i know i'm not in the best position to say all that i've said, but hello, it's the truth. disagree? tag me and we can talk.

btw. if you wanna hate me after i say all this, then come and tell me straight in the face. we can sort it out, civilly.

i feel it more than ever