waxing lyrical.
yes. this post is going to be a tad emo.
stef realised that elmo, was really an "emo" with the letter "L". gotta say i was rather amused. :)
been seeing too much of vivo city this week. need to find a new place to hang out. but when you're in clementi and you're lazy to go anywhere else, you go to vivocity. because it's big, it's cold, and it's rather entertaining. rather. i dont know. what's everyone's definition of entertaining? haha. i think a mall should have things to do in it that are entertaining. not just shops. SIGH.
on the train home today i was with nicole, and we talked about the acting module, and all the shit that it feels like it is. i MISS TSD, more than i thought i would. in TSD, we were allowed to FEEL. to do what we felt is right for our theatre. We could put things together, pieces of theatre that i know, if i were to shove into the lecturer's face, i could legitimately challenge him to tell me that's not GOOD theatre. Theatre is ultimately an expression; a message that the actors and the crew are left with to translate into a palatable, understandable form. Who in the world is going to care if that's "so stanislavski" or "so Brecht"? i mean, they're great and all, they work. but getting yourself lost in a character screws with your head. Also, being too provocative makes you boring. i'm not saying we should appeal to the mass and go down to the lowest common denominator, but there needs to be a balance between theatrically sound ideas and being entertaining.
nicole and i came to the conclusion i was getting disillusioned. where's the real family? in marketing class i felt really bad for the last group. basically it felt like they had the most difficult marketing task; trying to market something that was, sorry to have to say, lacking in all of the unique selling points they covered. there is no family, (although a resemblance of it can be found.) it doesnt make you more confident (if anything it makes you so unsure of what you're doing), and it doesnt allow you to feel anymore (it's too technical and academic to do so.) i know i'm supposed to find happiness in what i'm doing, and not sulk and whine and be upset, but i can't help it. i mean, i'll snap out of it and of course, i am finding that family (thank God for the Neubronner.) that is supposed to be in TS, but at this stage, right at this very moment, i WISH that NUS TS would lighten up and encourage creativity. i want to be a theatre academic, YES. But i also want to be able to be engaged in creative things, and not have my creativity shot down because it's not "brecht" or "stanislavski" enough.
i'm just tired of trying to find that joy i guess.
i need some real VJ style theatre soon or i'm going to explode.
on the side, nicole and i started talking about the other JCs who have started to offer TSD at A levels. here's a tip to a certain JC who has lots of money somewhere out west: you may have the money for great sets and costumes, but you lose the real essence of theatre under all of those layers. why do you need them? are you insecure? oh. and. theatre's more than just about musicals. try something smaller. maybe then the loopholes will be covered up.
ok. i feel bitchy all of a sudden. gonna NOT say anything more.
losing my way.
yes. this post is going to be a tad emo.
stef realised that elmo, was really an "emo" with the letter "L". gotta say i was rather amused. :)
been seeing too much of vivo city this week. need to find a new place to hang out. but when you're in clementi and you're lazy to go anywhere else, you go to vivocity. because it's big, it's cold, and it's rather entertaining. rather. i dont know. what's everyone's definition of entertaining? haha. i think a mall should have things to do in it that are entertaining. not just shops. SIGH.
on the train home today i was with nicole, and we talked about the acting module, and all the shit that it feels like it is. i MISS TSD, more than i thought i would. in TSD, we were allowed to FEEL. to do what we felt is right for our theatre. We could put things together, pieces of theatre that i know, if i were to shove into the lecturer's face, i could legitimately challenge him to tell me that's not GOOD theatre. Theatre is ultimately an expression; a message that the actors and the crew are left with to translate into a palatable, understandable form. Who in the world is going to care if that's "so stanislavski" or "so Brecht"? i mean, they're great and all, they work. but getting yourself lost in a character screws with your head. Also, being too provocative makes you boring. i'm not saying we should appeal to the mass and go down to the lowest common denominator, but there needs to be a balance between theatrically sound ideas and being entertaining.
nicole and i came to the conclusion i was getting disillusioned. where's the real family? in marketing class i felt really bad for the last group. basically it felt like they had the most difficult marketing task; trying to market something that was, sorry to have to say, lacking in all of the unique selling points they covered. there is no family, (although a resemblance of it can be found.) it doesnt make you more confident (if anything it makes you so unsure of what you're doing), and it doesnt allow you to feel anymore (it's too technical and academic to do so.) i know i'm supposed to find happiness in what i'm doing, and not sulk and whine and be upset, but i can't help it. i mean, i'll snap out of it and of course, i am finding that family (thank God for the Neubronner.) that is supposed to be in TS, but at this stage, right at this very moment, i WISH that NUS TS would lighten up and encourage creativity. i want to be a theatre academic, YES. But i also want to be able to be engaged in creative things, and not have my creativity shot down because it's not "brecht" or "stanislavski" enough.
i'm just tired of trying to find that joy i guess.
i need some real VJ style theatre soon or i'm going to explode.
on the side, nicole and i started talking about the other JCs who have started to offer TSD at A levels. here's a tip to a certain JC who has lots of money somewhere out west: you may have the money for great sets and costumes, but you lose the real essence of theatre under all of those layers. why do you need them? are you insecure? oh. and. theatre's more than just about musicals. try something smaller. maybe then the loopholes will be covered up.
ok. i feel bitchy all of a sudden. gonna NOT say anything more.
losing my way.
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