359

that is the number of posts this blog has recieved since its inception, some years ago when i thought blogging was cool and worth going into. i've always liked to write. i mean, when i write, i find it easier to express myself. yet sometimes, all i have to do is smile, or touch (not in the ways people tend to think) someone and it's enough. when i get to that stage with people, the silences are like conversations that never end. and i like conversations that never end. because those are the conversations which i think are the most fruitful.

in passing...

acting exam this morning. after doing theatre for about 3 years, i've gotten used to being EXAMINED for my theatre, not doing it to entertain others. in many ways i think it helps, because you explore concepts that are theatrically sound, but not necessarily have to be entertaining. but anything you put on a stage now with the most complex theatrical elements in mind would appeal to me, so in many senses i must be a theatre buff.

i'm struggling to make coherent sense.

i need to study, but i havent the time.

i rather enjoyed acting, i must say. i've never thought of myself as much of an actor. there are many roles i'm comfortable playing: old ladies, crazy writer types and the odd hungarian man or 2. and then there are roles i could NEVER ever play. like bimbos, being bitchy, scantily clad women (think, for a second, if you really want to see me scantily clad. THINK.), or anything too feminine. which is why i think it was ironic when i told stef to act more feminine. it was as if i knew what feminine is, well. ok i do. i'm not quite a girl anymore, but not really a woman also. strange place to be, this position. ah well.

anyway. i miss my acting group already. i believe that nothing really bonds people like theatre does. Extended amounts of time spent in close contact with each other, and you know exactly what the other people are going through, the emotional baggage that is dug up to play the character, and the experience is no longer just yours, it's everyone's. at that point of contact it's hard not to get kinda close. closer than other project groups of course. :)


have i mentioned how much i love this theatre thing? :)

Thanks for the memories my fellow romanians. i love all of you to BITS. :)

what you got, they cant steal it, no they cant even feel it.