ambivalent

well. not really. i was just really struck at how i was more interested in the VT killing than in war, genocide and all that other bad stuff happening in the world. makes me wonder how do i know i really care for this world? because i only read news about the shootings, but turn a blind eye when the heading says baghdad?

maybe my best friend was right. when it's something out of the "extraordinary-ordinary", it catches your eye, when you're already blind to all the other extraordinary things happening around you. paradoxically though, even if i did care (i guess i do, but not to a large extent, sadly enough), what can i do? i doubt i'll ever find enough passion within myself to go and do something about it.

which is really an excuse, but i cant think of anything else. i suppose i'm just not one of those i'll leave my comfort zone types. i think we've established that some time ago. that, has to change, i think. if i am going to be a better person.

sometimes i wished i didnt have any excuses, and didnt have a choice. maybe then i'll achieve true greatness.

when god saved the queen she turned a whiter shade of pale