if shame had a face do you think it would kinda look like mine?

it's been some time pple ... 'sup? after a near 10 day hiatus from blogging ... i am BACK! =) missed me? hehe ...

ok ... actually it's been a crappy past few days ... but what the hell lah ... pple givin' us all this beefin' abt our results, attitude blah de blah ... i got E for both history and lit ... and D for TSD ... which isnt too bad considering my terrible mono ... but duo is gonna be good ... i can feel it ... i just need to get over my fear of acting ... haha ... sigh ... bleah~ *waves at duo partner corrie* =)

btw ... been starting to go around saying: *pfft* ... copyrighted by dongum ... haha ... but it's gonna be my phrase for awhile ... do NOT sue! =P *pfft*

tomoro got some seminar to go to ... meaning i miss TSD lect and History tutorial ... and also Lit in case we get our papers back ... the stupid thing is i'll be back in skool in time for GP ... and we're doing WRITTEN WORK!!!! argh!!!!!!!! sigh ... *pfft* ... what the hell lah ... bleah~

i talked to rohana today and we kinda traded stories ... it was really cool lah ... she's so easy to talk to ... haha ... kool man ... =) anyway ... i didnt really expect what happened today to happen ... but it's great that it did ... i just made meself a new friend ... *pats myself on the back* =)

i miss you ... i hope you're alright. to say i'm worried is kind of an understatement ...
 
anyway ... how's everybody? i feel kinda detached from the world you know ... it's getting so out of hand and out of touch ... PA crew people starting to get cold, church starting to get out of my touch ... i dont feel part of YLO anymore ... i like dont do nothing coz they're all set for youth camp and i'm not involved at all ... i dont like being pushed aside ... but i suppose there's nothing much to do since i wont be at camp anyway ... but still? i must be the most slack person in YLO and i dont like that ... i guess even if i wasnt coming for camp, i could still help right? dont start guessing ... i AM bitter about this ... *pfft* ... argh leave it ...

my life is quite confusing right now ... i need somebody to be there for me ... sigh ... but you're all too busy with your work and life to bother ... no i'm not feeling sorry for myself ... i'm just being stupid ... i need a break ... bleah~ i'm so tired of keeping up appearances in front of everyone ... but it happens only when i'm alone ... when someone (anyone!!!) is around, this solitude becomes easier to bear ... i am at constant battle with myself ... and physical disability does not help the situation ... *pfft* ... i'm just ranting ...

i have to go ... fuck life ... dont wanna give a shit anymore ... anger slowly seeps into my veins and i cant help it. SCREW you ...

unclench your fists and unpack your suitcase