it's over and done, but the heartache lives on inside
Duos are officially OVER. results out on wed. i cant say i'm not nervous. i think it's gonna be quite bad my duo ... argh. haha :)
anyway, i probably wont be blogging much til end of promos. i cant afford to if i wanna do my S papers shit. shucks i'm starting to become very stressed abt my promos. for one thing: i'm super detached from God right now. really. i havent prayed in eons ... and i tells you i know something's missing in my life. damn. i need my LIFE back. i need to have blessed reassurance that there's Someone there for me always. man. sighs. God help me please.
anyway. today was a pretty good day. even though it all happened at parkway. haha ... but dinner with rashez, rau, rohana and vane was super shit funny. :) will put up photos soon. but i tells you, it made me sit up and think that actually contrary to what i think, i do fit in. haha ... it's times like this i wished i could have more of. sometimes i realise i make myself blind. just because i cant fit in with one group of pple doesnt mean i cant fit in with others. i've been quite stupid lah. Blinded by love for one thing. argh. haha ... but hey guys: thanx! i had a lot of fun today! :) time for blackmail! ok ok ... KIDDING! :P
still in the process of deciding to say or not to say. somebody did something today with lots of implications again. haha ... man. this is shit. haha ... :P but i honestly think that person should know abt all this. i want that person to know but it's a matter of if that person accepts it or not. i should take dawn's advice: dont be shy. there's no reason to be. :) haha ... another 'dawn brilliant moment!' :P
anyway, i guess i've come to a point where i'm just struggling for acceptance from pple i really care for and love. i came to a conclusion that i have too much love to give, and so i must find my outlets. haha. sounds narcissitic. but then again it is true. there must be a reason why i always feel like getting stuff for pple. and i guess this is why?? haha ... man ... sigh. i hope all of you dont mind! :)
k k ... i think i must go and plan what to study now and then go and sleep. PROMOS studying starts tomoro. i am screwed. :P
lastly: to that person. I love you more than i can say.
last lastly: stinky: i'm not expecting you to be there for me all the time. dont get the wrong idea. i still love you no matter what girl! :)
tatybye! :P
i've been kissed by a rose on the grey.
Duos are officially OVER. results out on wed. i cant say i'm not nervous. i think it's gonna be quite bad my duo ... argh. haha :)
anyway, i probably wont be blogging much til end of promos. i cant afford to if i wanna do my S papers shit. shucks i'm starting to become very stressed abt my promos. for one thing: i'm super detached from God right now. really. i havent prayed in eons ... and i tells you i know something's missing in my life. damn. i need my LIFE back. i need to have blessed reassurance that there's Someone there for me always. man. sighs. God help me please.
anyway. today was a pretty good day. even though it all happened at parkway. haha ... but dinner with rashez, rau, rohana and vane was super shit funny. :) will put up photos soon. but i tells you, it made me sit up and think that actually contrary to what i think, i do fit in. haha ... it's times like this i wished i could have more of. sometimes i realise i make myself blind. just because i cant fit in with one group of pple doesnt mean i cant fit in with others. i've been quite stupid lah. Blinded by love for one thing. argh. haha ... but hey guys: thanx! i had a lot of fun today! :) time for blackmail! ok ok ... KIDDING! :P
still in the process of deciding to say or not to say. somebody did something today with lots of implications again. haha ... man. this is shit. haha ... :P but i honestly think that person should know abt all this. i want that person to know but it's a matter of if that person accepts it or not. i should take dawn's advice: dont be shy. there's no reason to be. :) haha ... another 'dawn brilliant moment!' :P
anyway, i guess i've come to a point where i'm just struggling for acceptance from pple i really care for and love. i came to a conclusion that i have too much love to give, and so i must find my outlets. haha. sounds narcissitic. but then again it is true. there must be a reason why i always feel like getting stuff for pple. and i guess this is why?? haha ... man ... sigh. i hope all of you dont mind! :)
k k ... i think i must go and plan what to study now and then go and sleep. PROMOS studying starts tomoro. i am screwed. :P
lastly: to that person. I love you more than i can say.
last lastly: stinky: i'm not expecting you to be there for me all the time. dont get the wrong idea. i still love you no matter what girl! :)
tatybye! :P
i've been kissed by a rose on the grey.
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