All that you can't leave behind

the staffroom is cold as usual. what to do? there're 2 aircons running, and only 3 of us in here. i will miss this place. our random radio-clubbing parties MJ and i have coz we're bored of marking senseless SBQs and very random chicken scratchings. sometimes i wonder if there's a sub reality here that the staff room is. it's like some alternate zone, away from others, and i am truly at peace. because there's no one watching me. and even if there is, i dont care, coz ignorance is bliss.

i start work at a Theatre Production company on wed. i guess, well, sometimes life throws you strange curve balls and you have to catch them, even if it seems that you're gonna be working shit hours for peanuts. here, in KC, i'm getting good pay for peanuts of work. it's a comfortable arrangement i've grown used to. but well, i'm young, i need to embrace change.

i guess the whole point of this is to tell my students that i'm not leaving because of them. i would stay for them. but when life gives you something worthwhile, you grab it. coz life is about living, not about being comfortable. you need to know, of course, whether you're making the right decision. but, you also need to take risks and jump guns. and well, there's also God. He indeed honours those who put Him first. this door was opened by Him. only He could have allowed this to happen.

so here, in this brightly lit, very cold staffroom (girls, now you understand why i always seem to be wearing 2 layers?) i just want to say something.

2/5: you guys are a lovely bunch. you are, despite your noise and your senseless questions. you're also very united, which is a good thing for a class. maybe it's just coz i was from 2/5 as well, but you know what, you guys are indeed one of my favourite classes. keep that between us so people wont say anything ok? :P in any case, me leaving, the hardest people to know i wont be seeing for sometime will be you guys. you are a joy to teach. sometimes i wanted to murder you. but well, hey, you've grown on me. i hope no one fails history at mid years. :P keep that 2/5 spirit going aiite? and i may pop by at random just to say hello :P and you can call me, though i doubt i'll be free, for history tuition. that's if you dont mind my C for A level history. call me out for lunch someday. :) i owe you guys an outing, though i cant treat you because i am going to be very poor after i quit. :P heh.

i dont think any other class would read this, so i wont say more. tag me if you're from some other class. i might consider a tribute.

so that's that. the road ahead excites me, and scares me too. i am afraid. but i'm also on fire.

and God will be the centre of it all. that's my promise.

i will be going now. gotta trot off to lesson. for one of the last times.

carpe dium (is it spelled this way?)

i'll do anything to just feel better