into the new year and beyond.

first post of the new year. and the first day is almost over. in abt 1 hour, happy new year holds no more water. weird aint it, how the new year usually is only celebrated for one day. like the rest of the days arent new? haha. i'm just trying to make sense out of being senseless.

so the year 2004 has gone past, like a flash of lightning. but it's been an eventful, insightful and impactful year. and i know i'll never forget it.

2004 saw liting's first crush on a guy. i've never had crushes before. hehe. mebbe the lack of boys environment was the issue. i mean, put the past aside. last year saw 3 crushes on BOYS! i am amazed at myself. :P

2004 also saw alot of theatre, alot of plays, alot of theatrical experiences i will never forget. like A levels, crewing, slotting, dim sum dollies, mono, duos, group, lighting, and basically the things i love. haunted house, TSD master class, Public P, and all the shit on the sides. i loved every damned minute of it. :)

last year also brought a new chapter to my life in terms of relationships. breaking up was never easy, and i think i've healed alot this year. like to put it bluntly, and perhaps this will sound bitchy ... but i'm GLAD i'm over some people. i mean, sometimes when your pride gets too big for yourself to handle, dont ask why everyone around you falls away. and i'm glad you're no longer here to bother me. it's been some ride this year. i'm glad i fell off the seat next to you.

as for other relationships, crushes, people i loved, have come to love, and will continue to love, (some of you fall in all those categories :) ) it's really been a pleasure. there isnt anything in the world that can take your place. each of you are uniquely special to me. and all the beautiful relationships i've built this year. i know they'll be treasures of my heart for a long time. :)

for those i've failed to be enough of a friend to. i'm sorry. but i still love you all. :)

and for those i've been mean to. i'm sorry. i dont know how to take back all the hurt. but i really hope next year will be better. hope.

other highly eventful things have happened. it's magnitude is sheer and i am not able to write every moment down. but important things are: big fight with best friend, ankle busted during mono, fear of performance since then, my semi emotional break down, my spiritual highs and lows, the happy times, the love sick times, specific events like haunted house, mono, duo, a levels, important things like public p and all that. it's been such a ride! for this rollercoaster i'm glad that i was strapped in safely, and i made it.

so i guess this here's a big shout out to people:

the ole' timers:
stinky
PJ
duck
dog
michelle wu

vj peeps:
vane
dawn
crystal
cho
raudhah
rashez
corrie
shaun
sarah
rohana
xi jie
arika
grace
conan
michelle tan
vivienne

cmc peeps:
yihui
melly
audz
deb
jesher
alvin
pao yin
salene
chris ong
wei jun
sherilyn

and the rest of the world ...

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

it wouldnt have been the same without you! :)

well. i guess the year's gone. :) haha. it's been great.

2005 here i come! :)

well. bye bye. :)

it's hard to take courage.