An error doesn't become a mistake until you refuse to correct it. - Orlando A. Battista

to some extent now that i know the truth, it takes a weight off my shoulder. but i am still very much disturbed and troubled, because i still do not understand. i cannot fathom it because it is just too difficult. honestly i want so much to run away from it all and just pretend that nothing happened. obviously, i cannot. because the situation does not allow me to do that.

i think i said too much today. though i think i made some sense at the very least.

hey: once you've opened the door to my heart, i doubt it will ever close on you. stay strong. you'll get through it, whether with help or not, at the end of the road there is something beautiful waiting to happen. and when you set your eyes on the end, you'll find yourself on a high-speed train there.

i'm gonna need time to think about it and sort it out with myself, because it is pretty much difficult to digest. i will be perfectly honest: i havent really come to terms with it.

alright. i cant say much more, cept mebbe some song lyrics here and there.

Phil Collins - True Colors

You with the sad eyes
Don't be discouraged
Oh I realize
It's hard to take courage
In a world full of people
You can lose sight of it
And the darkness, inside you
Makes you feel so small

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Just show your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Show me a smile then,
Don't be unhappy, can't remember
When I last saw you laughing
If this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Just show your true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Like a rainbow

Such sad eyes
Take courage now
Realize

When this world makes you crazy
And you've taken all you can bear
Just call me up
Because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid to let them show
Just show your true colors
True colors, true colors

Are shining through
I see your true colors
And that's why I love you
So don't be afraid; just let them show
Your true colors, true colors
True colors are beautiful,
Beautiful, like a rainbow

aiite, this is me.

night.

there must be peace and understanding somehow.