i would love to love you.

From The Inside Out – Hillsongs United

A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

Ever so often you find a song that really really moves you. and then you realise how human and how real the world is. and then you realise, that a song is all it takes. it's all it takes to bring you back. it's all it takes to make you love again.

i am not reformed, dont get me wrong. i'm just ... blessed. that God is still able to move me (like anything's impossible for Him, but hey, my point really is that i'm not that hard after all.). i'm still a mess, still struggling, but at least i'm still swimming and not drowning yet. :)

anyway. what an eventful day it has been. and as i've said (A THOUSAND TIMES I KNOW.) i've been through it before. whatever you want to believe i dont care. i've just been there before, and so, i understand. :P it's not even a 'been there done that thing'. it's just, i KNOW. hahaha. i wish you 3 all the best. :)

and i still love you. even though it's getting more and more difficult to allow myself to. i think i just want you to be happy. and i want to be the one who makes you smile.

ok. enough sappy shit. i'm hopeless.

just 2 lost souls swimming in a fishbowl year after year.