another day in paradise
for no apparent reason whatsoever, the appeal of sleep does not call out to me tonight. I'm not insomniac or anything. i just don't feel like sleeping. Perhaps it is the weight that is on my mind which seems to hang above me constantly. It threatens, ever so subtly, to stop me from sleeping completely.
(i am trying to be poetic. give me a break.)
truth be told, i was reading plot summaries of the series LOST just now, trying to uncover what is happening on the show since i lapsed after season 2. It just keeps getting more and more ridiculous, and i don't understand why people still watch it.
Anyway.
i suppose the reflection on "Temple" is mandatory, although how much i can reveal without significant attention is not certain. On the whole i really enjoyed myself. not that the work was easy or the load light to bear, but i actually did more and learned more than my entire FOH experience with Dream combined. In the last 2 weeks i understood what it was to work under immense pressure, to breakdown only to build up again, and to learn how to respect a director the way they need to be respected. I also realised that i was stronger than i thought i was, more sociable than i think i am, and more hardworking than i proved to be. I'm not saying i did a fantastic job or anything, but i do know i did what i was supposed to do with the best possible finesse, and in the end no one was upset with me.
the plus point, really, was the fact that i actually crewed and began to understand the workings of a production and how production management works. i'm not the professional and i can't say i know much, but i might be able to run my own show, watching how my own PM handled "Temple". I'm not that afraid of the idea of production anymore. I'm also accepting that it is possible to do for a significant period of my life. I can see that this is what i will do in time to come as i build my career in this industry i really love.
the prospect of being in the "next generation" excites me so much i have no words for it.
I must mention here, after the reflections on "Temple", that Holloway seems quite on the cards. My accomodation application has been sent, and i'm already looking at air tickets, so the prospect of it happening is now more real than ever. I'm scared of the endless possibilities this may mean for me, but i'm thrilled that this is actually going to happen. I hope shakespeare does not get up from six feet under and trample me.
Ok. gotta go, starting to feel sleepy. (YES!)
cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in.
for no apparent reason whatsoever, the appeal of sleep does not call out to me tonight. I'm not insomniac or anything. i just don't feel like sleeping. Perhaps it is the weight that is on my mind which seems to hang above me constantly. It threatens, ever so subtly, to stop me from sleeping completely.
(i am trying to be poetic. give me a break.)
truth be told, i was reading plot summaries of the series LOST just now, trying to uncover what is happening on the show since i lapsed after season 2. It just keeps getting more and more ridiculous, and i don't understand why people still watch it.
Anyway.
i suppose the reflection on "Temple" is mandatory, although how much i can reveal without significant attention is not certain. On the whole i really enjoyed myself. not that the work was easy or the load light to bear, but i actually did more and learned more than my entire FOH experience with Dream combined. In the last 2 weeks i understood what it was to work under immense pressure, to breakdown only to build up again, and to learn how to respect a director the way they need to be respected. I also realised that i was stronger than i thought i was, more sociable than i think i am, and more hardworking than i proved to be. I'm not saying i did a fantastic job or anything, but i do know i did what i was supposed to do with the best possible finesse, and in the end no one was upset with me.
the plus point, really, was the fact that i actually crewed and began to understand the workings of a production and how production management works. i'm not the professional and i can't say i know much, but i might be able to run my own show, watching how my own PM handled "Temple". I'm not that afraid of the idea of production anymore. I'm also accepting that it is possible to do for a significant period of my life. I can see that this is what i will do in time to come as i build my career in this industry i really love.
the prospect of being in the "next generation" excites me so much i have no words for it.
I must mention here, after the reflections on "Temple", that Holloway seems quite on the cards. My accomodation application has been sent, and i'm already looking at air tickets, so the prospect of it happening is now more real than ever. I'm scared of the endless possibilities this may mean for me, but i'm thrilled that this is actually going to happen. I hope shakespeare does not get up from six feet under and trample me.
Ok. gotta go, starting to feel sleepy. (YES!)
cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in.
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