heart dont fail me now.

am currently going through a big band phase ... as you can see from my previous post. i'm going around (when i'm not too tired) belting out my own renditions of 'fly me to the moon' and 'the way you look tonight'. it's my way of relieving stress and relaxing the zonking brain. :) well zonking's not a word but who the hell cares? i DONT! :P

anyway. i came on intending to post a long blog post. but well ... it seems i've lost all inspiration to blog. mebbe i should just bitch but i dont want to. i mean ... i really dont think it's in me to bitch. but when i'm pushed by some provocation, then i launch massive retaliation. anyway i just need to say i'm not that happy with some people in my group crew. there. it stops RIGHT THERE. =X

the fact is i am just afraid of being nasty. it's not an issue of popularity. i just dont want to be anal about small things that could lead to big things ... i dunno ... it's all a mighty big blur. but i am still adjusting to life as a year 2, life as someone with A levels hanging over head. hmm ... haha. at the moment i dont really want to care but what can i do? i have to. but i'll enjoy the first half of the year for now. there aint nothing stopping me from doin' that. :P

anyway. i am currently not thinking very straight so i dont have thoughts to post ... but well ... mebbe one point to make. :P

we were discussing being self indulgent and it kinda turned into a slightly heated debate. alot of people who have blogs and post often usually post self indulgent posts about themselves, full of pity, love and hate etc ... and corrie kinda started talking about how she doesnt like being self indulgent. and how it's detestable behavior. i kinda just went: i think it's alright to be self indulgent. i mean, i'm not a good example. i know i'm super self indulgent sometimes and i like to whine and moan about things ... sometimes ... BUT ... i think there's nothing wrong with that. in fact, i think if it's not prolonged and just a once off thing, it's ok to self indulge. i mean, wont you become some psycho nut if you go to either extremes? like, if you were self indulgent to the extreme you get caught in a vicious cycle. but if you werent self indulgent when you need to be, wont it make you psycho coz you're surpressing everything??

i'm not making much sense but that's the gist of it. :P i mean well ... if we weren't self indulgent, wldnt we not have chocolate, mashed potatoes or all the other things that we take for comfort?

anyway ... my surprise is ready ... :P hehe *evil grin*

i think i shld stop posting now. i dunno what else to say. :P

fly me to the moon.