over and over again.

now that i've actually come to this end-in-sight that i've been looking forward to for so long, it feels anti-climatic. It's not like how i thought it'll be, but then again, i suppose there are so many opportunities for the long deserved break. honestly i'm quite lost, and i dunno what i really should do. i'm going to kick back and relax for the time being, but then, it's a LONG time to go. until july next year at least. well, actually feb coz then the results come.

i dunno if i should feel scared or what, because i'm fighting with myself, whether to expect the best, and be optimistic and risk being let down, or expect the worse, be pessimistic and risk spending the rest of my life until july in misery. oh gosh, what should i do??

but in any case, God's grace has seen me through. i have survived.

anyway, the money spending has begun and i'm going broke. ALREADY. i need to find a job. like, really. i need money, cash flowing in instead of going out. i feel bad spending my parent's money, and so, i am going to find a job, earn some cash, and lead the life i want to.

time to learn to be independent.

anyway. :)

i'm uploading songs into my tootPod. haha. :) am very happy. yay!

i rest my case.

i'm gonna go now. :)

bliss.

7 months begins, now. :)