sayin' i love you.
bouncing back right now i realised that dawn has been so right all this while. THERE IS LIFE AFTER JON CHO.
i swear, sun i cried at the party because of so many things, but a huge part of it was cause i saw crystal, dawn, i was there, but there was no cho. and i felt there was suddenly an empty patch in my life, like someone who meant so much suddenly disappeared.
i admit i'm not strong. and i'm totally not perfect, or the best that i could be. i know. i totally shouldnt have cried, it was just totally selfish of me. but gosh, world, i'm just asking for one moment where i could just completely have no front. call me stupid, call me insecure, insensitive, whateva, but remember i'm a girl, and like other girls, i have my times where i'm gonna be cryin' over a man/boy. and this is the first time i've really shed totally uncontrollable tears over a boy. it just happened in front of everyone.
i'm sorry to those who asked me what it was all about. at that point i just couldnt say what it really was. i was tired, half dead and not sure what was really the whole issue which suddenly swelled up. it just came like a sudden burst of thunder.
'coz it's hard for me to lose in my life i've found outside your skin right near the fire,
that we can, baby, we can change and feel alright.' - Daniel Powter, Freeloop
but you know what, i feel much better. all that really matters anymore really is that i dont do anything i regret anymore. i'll just live life being true to everything around me, and i really right now, can say that whether he talks to me again is no longer a real issue. yes, i still care for him, and yes, i still love him as a brother and friend. but i think, that's as far as anything goes.
there is life, after jon cho.
because there's someone else, who really, i think, is a Godsend. and i know, FOR SURE, that here's a friend to keep now. right from the first time we met, there was something. something cool, a weird sorta sense that we had a connection.
there is life, after jon cho.
i just realised i probably totally didnt make much sense. well i guess the gist of it is: i'm BACK :)
getting closer, oh yeah, to the life you're imagining.
bouncing back right now i realised that dawn has been so right all this while. THERE IS LIFE AFTER JON CHO.
i swear, sun i cried at the party because of so many things, but a huge part of it was cause i saw crystal, dawn, i was there, but there was no cho. and i felt there was suddenly an empty patch in my life, like someone who meant so much suddenly disappeared.
i admit i'm not strong. and i'm totally not perfect, or the best that i could be. i know. i totally shouldnt have cried, it was just totally selfish of me. but gosh, world, i'm just asking for one moment where i could just completely have no front. call me stupid, call me insecure, insensitive, whateva, but remember i'm a girl, and like other girls, i have my times where i'm gonna be cryin' over a man/boy. and this is the first time i've really shed totally uncontrollable tears over a boy. it just happened in front of everyone.
i'm sorry to those who asked me what it was all about. at that point i just couldnt say what it really was. i was tired, half dead and not sure what was really the whole issue which suddenly swelled up. it just came like a sudden burst of thunder.
'coz it's hard for me to lose in my life i've found outside your skin right near the fire,
that we can, baby, we can change and feel alright.' - Daniel Powter, Freeloop
but you know what, i feel much better. all that really matters anymore really is that i dont do anything i regret anymore. i'll just live life being true to everything around me, and i really right now, can say that whether he talks to me again is no longer a real issue. yes, i still care for him, and yes, i still love him as a brother and friend. but i think, that's as far as anything goes.
there is life, after jon cho.
because there's someone else, who really, i think, is a Godsend. and i know, FOR SURE, that here's a friend to keep now. right from the first time we met, there was something. something cool, a weird sorta sense that we had a connection.
there is life, after jon cho.
i just realised i probably totally didnt make much sense. well i guess the gist of it is: i'm BACK :)
getting closer, oh yeah, to the life you're imagining.
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