that's what's so awful, irreducibly real.

i'm going off on one of my tangents again, where i'm just typing at random having lunch by myself. i should be heading off to the national library (because i do not like NUS' libraries) soon so this will be a quickie.

it is also often in the mid afternoon you have quickies, so it's appropriate.

anyway.

i've gotta act tomoro and it's scary because i havent acted in some time, and it's a character i'm not used to playing. but i LOVE the text because it's beautiful; i totally relate to it and i'm really glad to be doing it. i just wished i could do better justice acting it.

it's a duologue, so naturally i'll think of all the great duologues we saw in our time in VJ. haha. shaun and rohana, Michelle and lynn, dawn and carol, yuhui and shaun, vanessa and raudhah, rashez and vanessa, cho and brandon, michelle and angela, esmonde and grace (who could EVER forget that?) and ALOT MORE which i can remember bits off but dont remember the whole duo. and then of course, the juniors, whom i really think bob and saiful were fantastic :)

the other most natural thing, of course, is to think of my own duo experience with corrie my duopardner. :) we're both emo people so you can imagine the chaos :P haha. but well, lofty said it was like a kitchen sink drama, and it didnt fit the genre. we were young i suppose. and too lazy to do more. haha. :P

duos are for me, more fun than monos. you get to work with someone. you're not just talking to an invisible 4th wall. you're not just being emo and neurotic and talking to yourself. you're talking to somebody, and that somebody's talking back to you. and in that process you get to know each other very well (sometimes even more than you want to get to know someone). you "live and learn" as they said in sprouts. you make sacrifices, concessions and what not, and you look after each other. which is why it puzzled me, that preparing for the coming duologue, it only took 1.5 hours.

welcome to the world of NUS theatre. thank goodness it isnt graded. (I HOPE! or I'LL JUMP OFF THE HILL)

SEMIOTICS fascinates me. yet at the same time, it's so technical it has turned the study of theatre into a science. it worries me that it can get so technical. the beauty of theatre is it's spontaniety. maybe why theatre fascinates me in general is the element of surprise. the duality of everything also intrigues me. how it's simultaneously timeless and ephemeral, simultaneously technical and magical; the interplay of all these opposites is just amazing. think you cant do 2 things at once, be in two places at once, or be 2 people at once? in the theatre, you can. it's almost as if you're unlocking a fantasy world where nothing is impossible. perhaps the theatre is God's way of showing us that everything and anything can be done, when you have the will to try.

i dont wanna be blasphemous so no more religious comparisons ok. :P

anyway. i should be going. i've slurped down the last of my lunch some time in that last paragraph and i really shouldnt be slacking my life away. i'm no longer accountable to just myself you know.

and i'm going broke. SOME BODY SAVE ME!!!!



loves of my life. :)

i'm gone. :)

all the struggle we thought was in vain