the Servant King ...
i just got back from Easter celebration ... ok i've been home for awhile ... but yeah ... it's over ... and the adrenaline's gone ... now i havent anything to look forward to ... gosh, i love theatre where people dont care if a light cue is missed, whether props are missing ... TSD's starting to get on my nerves, i havent finished my mono ... argh ... i think my mono sucks ... i dunno ... gonna screw it ...
ok ... so Easter was really good ... the turn out was good, and i think at least 1 person was touched? ok ... i speculate, but i have faith ... and anyway ... how am i supposed to know if anyone did experience anything? that's his/her experience with Him ... anyway, it's like i was thrown into a wonderful dream when doing Easter, but now, i'm thrown back into the real world ... that hurts ... i'm in a slight bout of depression now ... i dunno what's up, but i just feel very sian ... i dont wanna do anything ... i've got lots of chinese, history ... and my mono ... then there's also the lit essay ... ok ... enough ...
at least Baka came yesterday ... i think the production when quite well ... i dunno ... at least i met her yesterday ... duck and dog too ... well ... hmm ... i think Christmas will be a happy thingy thing ... like a comedy ... but it's so much easier to be drama mama then to act funny ... ok ... sighs ...
many names brought to mind last night ... Michelle, Fifa .... i'm the one suffering while they're ok ... i dont quite care actually ... if they're happy and i'm more or less ok then it's all good ... but i know i'm dealing with lots of bitterness ... but i cant deal with it until i have some closure ... i'm still holding on to the relationships ... i dunno ...
still holding onto God ... i need to ... i feel so inadequate sometimes ... sighs ... it hurt yesterday when people around me were breaking down and i was feeling nothing ... it got frustrating lah ... sighs ...
ok ... gonna mug now ... so not me ... the real me has been abducted by aliens ... i need help ...
come take me home
i just got back from Easter celebration ... ok i've been home for awhile ... but yeah ... it's over ... and the adrenaline's gone ... now i havent anything to look forward to ... gosh, i love theatre where people dont care if a light cue is missed, whether props are missing ... TSD's starting to get on my nerves, i havent finished my mono ... argh ... i think my mono sucks ... i dunno ... gonna screw it ...
ok ... so Easter was really good ... the turn out was good, and i think at least 1 person was touched? ok ... i speculate, but i have faith ... and anyway ... how am i supposed to know if anyone did experience anything? that's his/her experience with Him ... anyway, it's like i was thrown into a wonderful dream when doing Easter, but now, i'm thrown back into the real world ... that hurts ... i'm in a slight bout of depression now ... i dunno what's up, but i just feel very sian ... i dont wanna do anything ... i've got lots of chinese, history ... and my mono ... then there's also the lit essay ... ok ... enough ...
at least Baka came yesterday ... i think the production when quite well ... i dunno ... at least i met her yesterday ... duck and dog too ... well ... hmm ... i think Christmas will be a happy thingy thing ... like a comedy ... but it's so much easier to be drama mama then to act funny ... ok ... sighs ...
many names brought to mind last night ... Michelle, Fifa .... i'm the one suffering while they're ok ... i dont quite care actually ... if they're happy and i'm more or less ok then it's all good ... but i know i'm dealing with lots of bitterness ... but i cant deal with it until i have some closure ... i'm still holding on to the relationships ... i dunno ...
still holding onto God ... i need to ... i feel so inadequate sometimes ... sighs ... it hurt yesterday when people around me were breaking down and i was feeling nothing ... it got frustrating lah ... sighs ...
ok ... gonna mug now ... so not me ... the real me has been abducted by aliens ... i need help ...
come take me home
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