loving again ...

hello world. =} so the group exams are over and the world is now looking to the Individual Skill exams ... haha ... quite tired ... but at least now 2 exams are over ... well ... 3 more to go ... then i get my life back for the time being ... haha ...

ok ... so i told calin some stuff ... kinda like talking to her ... have an inclination to trusting her ... didnt expect we'd have such a thing in common ... well ... haha ... =} break legs tomoro Cal. we your crew will be there ... it will be GREAT! =} yeah ...

Val's outta hospital. yeah! but now she's in pain ... i hope she's alright ... very worried for her ... sighs ...

i think i'm backsliding ... temptation being thrown at me from everywhere ... i really am scared of what i might do ... maybe i didnt change as much as i thought i did ... too many things coming back ... sighs ... i dont wanna lose touch with Him ... but it's getting difficult. it hurts ...

WJ's going. into camp lah ... army what ... well ... i think i'll miss him ... highly doubt it will be a returned emotion though ... Yihui's feeling the loss i think ... i dunno ... worried for her too ... she's sick ... sighs ... i wonder how she really feels abt him going into camp. sometimes i really rather not spend time with either of them ... makes me feel like a mosquito ... like always buzzing around ... makes me feel bad to be intruding ... should friends be feeling like this? somebody tell me ...

still tired of being what others want me to be ... but what do i wanna be? somebody tell me ... sighs ... then it's not quite what i want already huh? yeah ... sighs ... will stop here ... i need to study man ... sighs ...

peace out ya'll ...

come take me home