the whole concept isnt simple. it's brilliant

ok i just watched before sunset today. BRILLIANT movie. i just cant exactly remember quotes from the movie. but everyone must go and watch it. it is the most brilliant film i've seen this year. everyone must so go and watch it. now i want to watch before sunrise. haha :) cool man. like really cool.

one thing that did strike me though, watching the movie, was the part when she was going on about how all her ex boyfriends are all happily married while she's still single and not quite happy. it struck me that yes, people seem to move on too quickly. people do seem to move on too quickly. i know i'm guilty of that. but then again it's been almost a year. is that moving on too quickly? i mean. you miss someone you've loved before, then each day the feeling fades and you find that one day you wake up and you just dont think anymore abt it all. it FADES INTO OBLIVION. i guess for me to have been the one who told the other to go, it felt like it didnt have any impact on me. but the effects of that breakup took me apart. it hurt too much you know. i just HAD to move on. so quickly and now i know i've left you by yourself again. and i feel no guilt. because people must move on. mebbe it's time you moved on too.

shit you, dont blame me. even if it's my fault for re-establishing contact. even if it's my fault that somehow you were led on? even if i did things that cld have hurt you. bloody hell i'm half the person i used to be. i have changed. so much i guess i dont want you to know me anymore. i'm afraid that there might be something to stop me from moving on. i'm afriad that i might fall back in love with you and ruin my life by my own choices. i guess i didnt know what to expect. i guess i didnt know what to do. f**k it, i cant blame you.

let's just leave it at that. my thoughts are like realy random now. grr, dont take everything at face value.

ok on to brighter things.

36 was usually packed today. everyone trying to get out to orchard and just run around doing stuff. of course that's what we were doing too. us VJ kids. out after mother tongue AO, just looking for a place to chill. sure we all happened to be crammed in the back of the bus, sure we all happened to be noisy. but then again which group of students on the freaking bus keeps quiet??

so here's what happened. there was this woman lah. she was extremely neurotic i think. firstly, we were just laughing alot on the bus. now i know that we can be noisy and i know that we can be annoying but let's face it: which group of singaporean students wide awake on the bus does not make noise? and it's not as if we were shouting or what. we just talked, laughed. yeah.
so anyway, this woman starts to act abit weird lah. she sits infront of me and rau and then talks aloud to the person next to her (they dont know each other by the way) trying to tell us SUBTLY that we were noisy and inconsiderate. like she was saying really loudly that we were being inconsiderate and what not and expressing her irritation trying to get us to notice what she said. ha. we noticed, but what the hell are we supposed to do? so we just continue talking lah. it's like we dont hear her at all.

then we are at abt one stop before cine. the outburst comes. she turns around and starts shouting at us, telling us in our faces how inconsiderate we are and how pissed and angry she is, how the whole bus isnt interested in our conversation la-dee-da. like hello? at the TOP OF HER HIGH-PITCHED voice. like the whole bus wants to hear what you've said liddat. like your voice very nice to hear meh? like you alone, your voice was louder then all of us lah. the highlight of the whole thing was when arika started to talk back and point all of that out to her. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i think she didnt know what to say lah! then she like said we had no shame and all that. haha ... it was amusing lah. i think she was really unreasonable. we werent exactly noisy. just laughing. perhaps she cldnt laugh and so she reacted that way. i dunno lah.

then we got to cine bus stop and rau announced we were getting off. and that woman went: 'i'm following you!' and got off with us. now everybody, pls marvel at the ridiculousness of the whole thing. it was just so funny. i cldnt keep it in ... i just had to laugh out loud.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. rau said she was stalking us. makes me wonder ... i think she was interested in our conversation after all. :P hehe.

ok lah ... i'm tired. that's it for today. the first part of this post was really random. it's all innner thoughts coming through. do not mistake it for being manic depressive. yeah :)

trying to write a classic.