the past cannot be erased ... but it can be buried. tonight it has been taken out and thrown on the ground ... stamped on by my own feet, and the one who suffered in the end was no one else ... but me.

woah ... long title for a post ... haha ... i suppose when things do not go your way, then it all becomes too painful to face ... i mean, life throws at you what you throw at it ... only if you throw a pebble, you may get a rock in return ... haha ... i guess when something has too much attached to it, then the weight is too hard to hold ... starting to get philosophical ... haha ...

i'm out of love again ... what's new ... haha ... it haunts me that i'm alone ... everynight i almost writhe in fear of the prospect of being alone when i wake up ... i hate the cold barren state of 4 walls ... i get claustrophobic ... haha ... i guess that's why pple are so impt to me ... i cant bear to be alone ... it hurts too deeply ... well ... haha ...

i think God is trying to do something ... i still feel distant, but i want to be the prodigal daughter ... i want to return to being with Him ... i do miss the presence ... sighs ... i need Him more than ever now and i know it ... well ... this is a good time huh? i think not ... oh well ...

to you know who: i've done what i can and i wont say anything more ... just forget it ever happened and let it pass ... i hope that we still have friends in each other ... haha ... =)

there will be no more talk of this ... ever

i want to type lyrics again ... hehe ...

It's the perfect time of year
Somewhere far away from here
I feel fine enough I guess
Considering everything's a mess
There's a restaurant down the street
Where hungry people like to eat
I could walk but I'll just drive
It's colder than it looks outside

It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone
Then you try to scream, but it only comes out as a yawn
When you try to see the world beyond your front door
Take your time, 'cause the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile
When you realize that a guy my size might take a while
Just try to figure out what all this is for

It's the perfect time of day
To throw all your cares away
Put the sprinkler on the lawn
And run through with my gym shorts on
Take a drink right from the hose
Change in to some drier clothes
Climb the stairs up to my room
And sleep away the afternoon

It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone
Then you try to scream but it only comes out as a yawn
When you try to see the world beyond your front door
Take your time, 'cause the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile
When you realize that a guy my size might take a while
Just try to figure out what all this is for

Pinch me, pinch me 'cause I'm still asleep
Please God tell me that I'm still asleep

On an evening such as this
It's hard to tell if I exist
If I pack the car and leave this town
Who'll notice that I'm not around?
I could hide out under there
I just made you say underwear
I could leave, but I'll just stay
All my stuff's here anyway

It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone
Then you try to scream, but it only comes out as a yawn
When you try to see the world beyond your front door
Take your time, cause the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile
When you realize that a guy my size might take a while
Just try to figure out what all this is for
Try to figure out what all this is for
Try to see the world beyond your front door
Try to figure out what all this is for

Barenaked ladies - Pinch me

ok ... i gtg now ... will be back

come take me home