you have the right to shut up. you just dont have the capacity!

hello hello! there shall be no smiley faces on this ... woah ... i havent blogged for a really long while ... haha ... no time lah dek ... sometimes got time also too lazy to blog. ok ... so update on my life: what update? no life!

been really busy with TSD exams just hours away ... ok lah ... 2 days ... but it's hours what ... hehe ... havent had much time for myself ... any free block i the opportunist try to go do something to keep sane ... i mean, you can get sick of seeing the same pple all the time ... it gets to you lah ... esp. if they bitch ... i mean ... it just sux lah ok ... we try our best, but our best is not enough ... well ... hah ... so i watched troy and shrek 2 already ... both were great ... but shrek more not worth it lah ... well ... the next movie to watch will be the day after tomoro ... by the way ... BRAD PITT is HOT!!!!!! *faint* oh my gosh ... he burns!!!!

hehe ... ok ... so ICS night's tomoro ... one thing i will try not to flop at ... especailly when i'm I/C ... feeling quite worried ...

ok ... let you in on something ... there is someone i think i like ... will not say who ... but really think this person is great ... i can only watch from a distance, because i will never know that person well enough to show how i feel abt that person ... well ... i know that person will knoe that i care ... that is enough ...

ok ... gotta go ... will see you all ...

come take me home

the world's a stage and i'm it's director ... :)

ok haha ... i'm in the PT now ... and it's so fun haha ... quite boring ... but yeah ... i'm not doing anything anyway so no diff ... :) i will be going home to do work tonight ... i have to do my mono stuff ... it's on next mon!!!! argh!!! ok haha ... erm ... well ... come support me for mono yeah? i'm doing kuo pao kun for sure ... so fun right? i'm actually quite happy with the piece now that i've practiced ... well ... haha ...

still havent figured out what to do about pj ... i mean ... i dunno ... if she doesnt want to be friends no more then ok ... fine ... it's up to you ... i will be right here waiting when you're ready to be friends again ... ok ... well ... hmm ... i shall not bother myself anymore with you ... it's not worth my time ...

anyway ... i'm blogging and this is very illegal so i'll just stop now ... feeling the same feelings i did a few months back ... remember the feeling that i had, being in a room full of people yet feeling so alone ... sigh ... my heart aches ... ok ... i'll stop here ...

in some place only you know you will find me ...

come take me home

if tomoro never comes ...

hello ... posting after a long while ... hmm ... anyway ... lotsa stuff have happened ... like i mean, it's been a rough road ... sighs ... will not elaborate further ...

anyway, fifa's dad called ... haha ... and because of that me and my best friend are in a fight ... wow ... so worth it to be fighting over that woman man ... but seriously ... i mean, i dont see how it's my fault ... for once i dont know how to view it as my fault ... PJ never reads my blog anyway ... ok i dont know that ... but it's not as if she will ... i dont even think she cares anymore eversince i told her off ... but i didnt tell her off tell her off ... she was making me feel worse so i had to stop letting myself be further hurt! it's not my fault it's not my fault it's not my fault!!!!!!!

or is it ...................?

no i will not say sorry for something i didnt do ... done that too many times ... why does she expect so much from me?! I AM HUMAN TOO! I HAVE FEELINGS TOO! I FEEL DOWN TOO! why the hell do you think i dont? i've been there for you because it WAS in my capacity to and still IS ... but when i'm down it ISNT! why cant you accept it? must you point out all my faults? all my insecurities? must you throw me in the dirt and rub my face in the mud i tried so hard to clean off?! and all these, over someone not worth fighting over because, like you, she doesnt care too ... but she has the right to ... you? as my best friend it's a choice ... not a right ... go ahead ... hate me ... i know i will care ...

that's enough ranting ...

come take me home

if there's one thing in e world to abolish, it would be PW

hello again ... wow ... been a long long time since i posted huh? ... haha ... i wonder who reads this on the net ... please let me know when you read the next time yeah? hehe ... :)

anyway, i dunno what else to say anymore ... :P so, maybe we should just crap ... ok wait .. got something to say ...

i was super pissed on Sat during the funfair ... coz of the stoopig DJs who were doing the song dedication ... they practically took over everything ... and because they were pissed that the songs they played were not 'appropriate' for a fun fair, they abolished the customers' ability to choose songs and played their own songs instead ... what the hell lah ... then pple didnt want to dedicate anymore ... needless to say, we must have made very little ... sucks man ... still abit pissed off ... :P

anyway, monos in 2 weeks and less ... sucks ... havent even memorise finish ... argh ... so gonna screw up my mono can ... everyone else seems so much more ready ... damnit ... sighs ... i have free time but i'm not using it ... because it's when i'm usually alone that i have free time ... so like it gets hard to concentrate when you're feeling sorry for yourself, all alone in a little world ... it hurts ... but i suppose there's nothing much anyone can do ... like we're all basically busy and not feeling well ... guess pple just dont need company anymore ... sighs ...

ok so anyway ... been thinking 'bout lots of stuff ... like friends and relationships ... love and all the hate in the world ... sounding abit philosophical now ... haha ... i feel like i'm losing touch with my secondary school friends ... esp. PJ ... it sux lah ... i mean, we just met up yeah, but then there's like where it ends ... she meets F more than she meets me and it's like i know F hates me ... i suppose i'm afriad of losing PJ ... no matter how much she says i wont ... i mean, what if one day we just stopped talking to each other and our friendship just dissolves into nothingness? i DONT WANT THAT to happen, and when i try to make an effort to not let it happen, i feel ignored ... sighs ... duck and dog are busy, so i suppose we still meet up occasionally, which is good lah ... and i suppose when we meet up we can talk so it IS all good ...

ok ... enough of my random thoughts ... still loving you babes ... see you around ... :)

come take me home