Where'd You Go? - Fort Minor

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone

She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debatin
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin and hatin' and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home

Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home
Please come back home

seems like it's been forever.

i dont wanna wake

ok. hello people. let's just drop the whole thing ok. it was a small thing. and i'm not angry, and neither should you all be with each other. the fault is mine. maybe i really shouldnt have told you all, then you wouldnt be in the position you all are in now. and i appreciate that you all cover up for me. thanks. i really feel much better knowing that. stop feeling bad, coz it's alright.

dont do something stupid.

and by that, i really mean, dont turn on someone from out of nowhere, coz the effects last a long time. i should know. i've been through it.

moving on with life.

i'm afraid to ask for help. because i dont know when your patience will run thin.

i'm through with you, and your sunday friendship.

maybe i just wanted you to be there fof me, like how i've been for you.

and maybe, like you've said before, i like being the matyr. well. being that helps me to live. makes me think that i could be a better person.

is this directed at you? yes.

irony is, many people will ask me if it's directed at them. all of them, except you. and this is not to those people.

dont come down.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	LT
Birthday:	October 29
Birthplace:	Thompson Medical center i think. :)
Current Location:	physically in pasir ris. in my head i'm floating through space
Eye Color:	dark brown
Hair Color:	soon to be some strange colour. need to go do something crazy with hair again
Height:	172 cm. and no longer growing. GRR.
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right. i'd have loved to be a left though. heh :P
Your Heritage:	i'm purely chinese, so am boring. :P heh.
The Shoes You Wore Today:	my timberland look alikes. to keep my jeans tied into the laces so i wont get them wet in the rain.
Your Weakness:	i care too much.
Your Fears:	err. let's not go there shall we? i know for one, losing someone is a big fear.
Your Perfect Pizza:	hmm. i like anything with onions, and tomatoes. i'd like tomato puree, minced beef, ham, tomatoes, onions and pineapple. on a thin crust. :)
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	cliched as it may sound, JUST KEEP MOVING. :) it's how i survive.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	WAHA! :D
Thoughts First Waking Up:	if i had a dream, usually about that. if not, it would have to be: 'ok. what do i have to do today?'
Your Best Physical Feature:	my scars. :)
Your Bedtime:	varies. i try to get at least 6 or 7 hrs or sleep. :)
Your Most Missed Memory:	TSD. i. miss. IS. and. GROUP. :(
Pepsi or Coke:	coke. pepsi tastes like cough syrup
MacDonalds or Burger King:	BK. i dont like macs much.
Single or Group Dates:	depends on mood doesnt it?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	what's the diff??
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate, though, if ice cream, it must be vanilla, coz even though i'm a chocolate freak, i dont really like chocolate ice cream.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	isn't cappuccino a TYPE of coffee? i'm a tea person though. uncle! Teh ta pao! :)
Do you Smoke:	nope
Do you Swear:	******** yes. **********
Do you Sing:	relatively well, if i do say so myself :P heh. *head blows up.
Do you Shower Daily:	I CANT IMAGINE NOT SHOWERING. i do it twice a day. :)
Have you Been in Love:	yes. though cynics will tell you i was deluding myself. F*** off.
Do you want to go to College:	i just got accepted in NUS FASS. :)
Do you want to get Married:	err...
Do you belive in yourself:	more or less, though sometimes i don't know how to.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nah. i LOVE roller coasters. :)
Do you think you are Attractive:	i believe there's some parts of me that are beautiful :)
Are you a Health Freak:	nope, though i go through phases.
Do you get along with your Parents:	yeah. :)
Do you like Thunderstorms:	well. depends on what i'm wearing. if in T-shirt and shorts, OK. coz i like playing in the rain. but if i'm dressed decently, NO. and it makes me sleepy. GRR.
Do you play an Instrument:	the guitar. better than when i first started out, but not quite where i wanna be yet.
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes. i love my drinks.
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yeah. pain killers after knee op.
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nope. dont rub it in.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yeah. last one today was anchorpoint to run an errand.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	err. i think i had one oreo.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yeah. :) with my new colleagues. :)
In the past month have you been on Stage:	hmm. i was at the esplanade, but i wasn't ON the stage.
In the past month have you been Dumped:	not attached how to get dumped??
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no. unless you want to see the michelin doll running and bobbing in front of you.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	a cabaret flyer?
Ever been Drunk:	yeah. and i intend to do it again. :)
Ever been called a Tease:	no. i'm so NOT that kinda girl.
Ever been Beaten up:	err...
Ever Shoplifted:	nope.
How do you want to Die:	peacefully without regret.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a producer. i think. i dunno lah.
What country would you most like to Visit:	i want to go to poland and see the concentration camps of the nazi regime.
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	i dont really know.
Favourite Hair Color:	well. brown with a little surprises here and there.
Short or Long Hair:	short. shaven is the best. :) no BMT haircuts though :P heh.
Height:	taller than me.
Weight:	anything's fine. :)
Best Clothing Style:	either geek chic, hip hopper, or skater punk :)
Number of Drugs I have taken:	hmmm. i dunno. nothing stimulating is fine.
Number of CDs I own:	me? or the person? i own too many. he must have more than me :P
Number of Piercings:	i have 6. well. if you have more than me, it's ok. none at all? then at least one. for the blingy things :)
Number of Tattoos:	ah. 1 or 2 :) coz i'm going to have 1 or 2 as well. :)
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	alot, but in general i live life without worrying about them.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

it all began tonight

West Side Story wasn't as bad as i thought it would have been. the dancing and all, the whole package was good. the set, lights, costume were fab, but the very essence of it was just totally lacking. the feel of it was off, and it just didnt feel up to standards. i've come to the conclusion that West Side Story has too many dances, and the story was lacking. sure, the dance was really good and all, but dance, after dance, after dance, just got draggy and irritating. it would have been worth to have been up close so you actually see clearly what's happening, but i would have been rather sore paying $160 for the standard the musical was. technical aspects wise, it's really good. but, i didnt really feel much pain. i wasn't convinced that tony and maria were in love. just, in total teenage whirl. (Which, actually, if you think about it in the sense of romeo and juliet, is the whole point isnt it? hmmm ... food for thought here.) all in all the first half was rather dismal. but it somehow, i guess, redeemed itself in the VERY SHORT second half. and the gun shot at the end, only one problem. NO KICK.

in one line, if you dont mind bad set lay out and endless dancing, pay to see it. otherwise, just watch the movie. at least the movie was good.

anyway.

i found myself feeling totally irritated today. i know it's because i'm biased and all, but i guess, it was really irritating. i need to keep my temper in check. if not i'll always blow up and become super emo and dramatic. if i may put it in someone's words, i guess i dont mind playing the matyr. so deal with it.

be wise, cause this girl satisfies.

ann siang hill is a nice, quaint little place to be. i like the whole yuppie feel of it all, though it does feel a little snobbish and snooty. it is literally like stepping into a whole new place, leaving behind the hustle and bustle of chinatown, and entering a little street which feels alot like it could have been provence (i'm not sure of the spelling, but it's a french town! :P) or tuscany. as it's chinese name suggests, ann siang hill is really quiet, peaceful and serene. ('ann' means quiet, undisturbed, while 'siang' means serene and content.) i like it. and i am going to buy a pair of shoes from one of the shops there. designer. FOR ONCE :P

in any case i was walking today at ann siang hill and i walked into a post box. which is going to leave a mark coz it REALLY REALLY hurts.

and i feel fat. too much calories today. haha :P oops.

i NEED TO WORK OUT!!!

or hopefully doris will send me out to run more errands. haha :P

ok i'm sleepy. i'll update soon. :)

take my hand and we're halfway there.

why are we so blind to see that the ones we hurt are you and me?

i've always known i am an emotional person. and well, maybe too much to handle for some. but what really hurts me, is that, people let go too easily. i always thought you'd be there, but well. obviously, it's not happening that way. too bad then. i dont wanna fight a non-existant battle anyway.

enough lamenting. i am going to make this a non emotional post. :)

Cabaret, is getting kinda exciting. and with marketing distribution, it's at least, going somewhere. and my boss seems kinda impressed. :) so i guess, i'm doing a good job so far. haha. :) yay. good for me.

anyway.

i am going to watch West Side Story tomoro, and it worries me that people have been saying it's not that good, and they've been walking out halfway. i hope it's $80 well spent man. SIGH. i hope my experience will be similar to lofty's. but then again, i guess lofty's easily moved. but then again, no. haha. SO. we'll see tomoro :)

i declare now, that i love valerie ann nunis. because she is my best friend :) heh.

this post has been totally random man.

had subway for lunch today. with my new colleague Sheradine, who i do think is very cute. haha :) that's ALL lah. what the hell.

anyway. i am really looking forward to CABARET. keep watching this space man! coz i tell you, it's going to be one hell of a show, and you REALLY shouldnt miss it :)

ok enough publicity.

song time. and this, is really one of my favourite songs. :)

Fastball - Out Of My Head

Sometimes i feel like
i am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of possibility,
wherever it may roll
Give it a spin,
see if it can somehow factor in
you know there's always more than one way
to say exactly what you mean to say

was i out of my head?
was i out of my mind?
how could i have ever been so blind?
i was waiting for an indication,
it was hard to find.
Dont matter what i say, only what i do
i never meant to do bad things to you
so tired, but i finally woke up
if you're sad then it's time you spoke up too

was i out of my head?
was i out of my mind?
how could i have ever been so blind?
i was waiting for an invitation,
it was hard to find.
Dont matter what i say, only what i do
i never meant to do bad things to you
so tired, but i finally woke up
if you're sad then it's time you spoke up too

maybe the song is right. maybe i just need to speak up. but how do you do it, when whatever you do, somebody gets hurt? i can't. i'll need to think about this. i need a change.

i'll do anything to just feel better

ripping off blogposts again. :P

from stinky :) heh. :)

A song by a Beatle / The Beatles:
all time fave has got to be 'Let it Be'

A song featuring piano as the main instrument:
Daniel Powter's 'Free Loop'

A song with a woman's name in the title:
Micheal Jackson's 'Billie Jean'

A song with a man's name in the title:
Lifehouse 'Simon'

A song about money:
sing it with me! 'i aint saying she's a GOLD DIGGER, but she aint messing with no broke nigger!'

A song with some form of weather in the title:
Guns n Roses 'November Rain'

A song with parentheses in the title (parentheses means brackets lah..):
Vertical Horizon 'Best I Ever Had (grey sky morning)'

A song made by a punk band:
The Ataris 'The Saddest Song' (emo sia! haha :P)

A song with the word 'song' in the title:
Bob Marley 'Redemption Song' (beats Stinky's reply of 'Thong song' by Sisqo. What happened to that guy??)

A song that you love so much you stop and listen whenever you hear it:
AH. erm. i tell you, there are too many songs that fit in this category. for awhile in recent times it was Corrine Bailey Rae. but perhaps now, at this point of time, it's Mary J Blige 'Be Without You' :)

anyway. haha. that was fun :)

gonna paste some emo lyrics.

Papa Roach - Scars

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

i dont need you to care anymore.
you havent got space in your heart. i was just someone who you could have, until you find someone else. well. it's ok. i'll just hang around. but i'm sorry, i really gotta move on with my own life. you know where to find me.

i'm wearing out a lonely road

i was waiting for an indication.

rumours are spreading but i dont really want to know the truth. i am truly scared.

yet on the other hand, i know somehow, it ISN'T true.

if you're confused, good. i am purposely being cryptic. some of you probably know what i'm talking about anyway. it's not meant to be discussed here. so zip.

anyway, KC kiddos, good luck for your mid years. after it's over we go underaged pooling. :)

i'm signing out for now. will update later when there's something to talk about. :)

back to work for me!

will i lose my dignity? will someone care?

light my candle.

i saw 'take the lead' for the second time today. and i do think the movie sorta lacks abit of closure, but it's an overall good movie. new crush is definitely DANTE BASCO who plays Ramos in the movie. HE IS HOT STUFF. i really really like. :) WAHA! :) i need a latino hottie to hold me tight as we tango.

you know, i never thought i'd EVER say that. haha :P

you know how people like to reflect on their lives everytime they blog? i dunno what to really reflect about, but i guess it just comes doesnt it? you cant force a reflection. (in some strange sense, this whole paragraph so far has been a reflection. haha :P) so anyway.

i spent the day with jeane today and it was uber fun. the conclusion i have is that she looks like crap with hat hair. (heh :P) and i'm writing this because i know she doesnt read this. but yes. actually we all look strange and weird with hat hair. which is a drawback from wearing a hat in singapore. coz it gets too hot and you just wanna take it off, but when you do, you look stupid. haha. :P so people, wearing a hat in singapore it just not practical.

but you know, i CANT LIVE without hats. i have too many of them and i really think that other than a beanie, my head was made for hats. :) haha.

anyway, enough about hats. let's talk about my stupid USP interview today.

uni is for snobs. i swear that is true. i knew that those 2 interviewers would be smarter and brighter than me (i mean, if they weren't then the programme's of questionable quality aint it?) but do they really have to talk to you with that "i-look-down-on-you-coz-you're-a-young-punkass" look in their eyes? ok fine, sure, USP is all about being elite and the cream of the crop (tell me which programme is not about that?) but you know what, if it entails all this shit about science and politics and what not, then forget it, coz i dont want my time to be taken up by all this shit. i'd rather be interning in my free time, than worrying about a USP assignment, or an essay and all that.

and you know, theatre's NOT ALL ABOUT PERFORMING. i dont need to be on a freaking stage in front of an audience to be in the industry. Actors are nothing without lighting, sound, management, publicity, FOH etc. sure, it's all about the actor on stage, but you dont got a show if it aint a group and team effort. so mr professor who interviewed me today, if you thinking i dont got street cred in the scene just coz i aint got external acting experience, then shut your trap about me being a narrow minded teenager because you yourself dont know nothing brother. *does that hand thing that you see black girls do in movies like a diva* i can live without this DAMNED USP thing. i am cool.

but dont get me wrong. actors ARE important. i have alot of friends who are brilliant actors, and yes, without the actor you really have no theatre (wait ... there's been experimental theatre without an actor... hmmm ... :P) ok no seriously, the actor is important. but that doesnt mean that the production work people are any less important! if there is no light person, who is going to SEE the actor? and without a mic, would the actor's voice last very long? (ok fine, maybe good acoustics will do the trick, but you still need SOMEONE to do the acoustics right?) and without the marketing team, would anyone come see the show? (You can't just survive on friend and family dollars you know.)

i was honestly offended when he asked me about my work outside of school, and when i started talking about my working with Dim Sum Dollies, Sleeping Beauty and Cabaret, he went: 'no, i meant actual acting, or directing.' and then he gives me a look of surprise when i said: 'i dont actually act. i'm more into the production side of things.' DUDE. not everyone's in the industry for fame and glory. there are those who are perfectly fine with working BACKSTAGE.

you know what the arts scene in singapore needs? more people who will do production work. if not, say GOODBYE to the arts scene coz there aint gonna be one.

so mr professor man, that is my final remark to you. there's more to theatre than that LITTLE box with a man inside.

i have said my peace.

anyway, 2/5, please go to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_W5fW3e_0SI

yup. that's it. :)

find glory in a song that rings true, truth like a blazing fire

the world keeps spinning around

i'm totally shagged man. and i actually spent the whole day asleep and sedated. i am tired. haha. :P

anyway. i am back. and i look like a hockey player with bandages on my knees that resemble shin guards. haha. if you're wondering whether it hurts, HELL YEAH, but i have high treshold of pain. so i'm good to go. haha.

and i saw the titanium screws. hell they look DAMN COOL. haha :) i am keeping it for souvenir. :)

anyway i am gonna turn in early tonight. haha. FOR ONCE. :)

look much better when you glow

gone going, gone everything gone

i'm away for 2 days so yeah. will be right back! :)

i dont like hospitals. EWW.

gone be the birds when they dont wanna sing

i'll cover you

something from RENT. i just bought the album and i think it's a damn sweet song. haha. shucks. this doesnt help my state of mind.

ANGEL
Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back
with on thousand kisses
Be my lover
and I'll cover you

COLLINS
Open your door
I'll be your tenant
Don't got much baggage to lay at your feet
But sweet kisses I've got to spare
I'll be there and I'll cover you

BOTH
I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are my love
on life Be my life

Just slip me on
I'll be your blanket
Wherever whatever
I'll be your coat

ANGEL
You'll be my king
and I'll be your castle

COLLINS
No you'll be my queen
And I'll be your moat

BOTH
I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are my love
on life all my life

I've longed to discover
Something as true as this is

COLLINS
So, with a thousand sweet kisses
ANGEL
(if you're cold and you're lonely)
COLLINS
I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses
ANGEL
(you've got one nickel only)
COLLINS
I'll cover you

ANGEL
With a thousand sweet kisses
COLLINS
(When you're worn out and tired)
ANGEL
I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses
COLLINS
(When your heart has expired)
ANGEL
I'll cover you

BOTH
Oh, lover
I'll cover you
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh, lover
I'll cover you

i'm not good.

when your heart has expired.

dont blame me, it's the rain.

another emo post ahead. watch out. :P

ok no i think i wont be emo today. haha. anyway. it rained this morning and i was like, oh bugger, coz for once, when i left the house, my hair was perfect. PERFECT ok. and it was BEAUTIFUL. but then, it had to be raining when i came out from the MRT. WAH LAO.

anyway, my hair looks like cock. (double meaning there! :D) it's shit ass funky, and i LOVE IT :)

you see what i mean by blogging becomes boring and trivial when you have nothing thoughtful to say? haha.

anyway, i'm sorta worried about my little friend here who's just come back from Koala land. i wished i could make her feel better, but well. i shall just try. and pray. i'm just worried coz the sparkle i used to see in her eyes is gone and it's worrying. i know she can work it out by herself, but my point really is i want to be there if she needs me.

ok i'm gonna get back to work before my boss says anything :P haha.

i'm drunk behind the wheel

The survey. :)

seven random facts about me
1) i dont have a favourite ben and jerry's ice cream flavour because i love them ALL! :)
2) i have 13 pairs of shoes (AND COUNTING!)
3) my favourite colour, which seems to be a hot topic coz people keep asking me that, is BLUE.
4) someone once called me a punk-geek. haha! oxymoron!
5) i like photographing people jumping in mid air. i think they're cool shots. :)
6) i've had 2 operations after dislocating my knees about 5 times.
7) i have a teddy bear which SHARES my bed, and takes up half of it. so you can imagine HOW BIG it is.

seven celebrity crushes
1) SAY IT WITH ME! BRAD PITT!! :D
2) Rodrigo Santoro
3) Clive Owen (HE IS OLD, BUT HOT HOT HOT!!!)
4) John Legend
5) the Louis Vuitton DON himself, KANYE WEST!
6) UTT (Yes. we all went through that stage. :P)
7) Simon Webbe. (have you seen his body in his video NO WORRIES??)

seven qualities i want in a potential boyfriend/girlfriend
1) Honesty
2) Romantic
3) knows when to talk cock with me and when to be sensitive
4) Must understand that i tend to be clingy, and want to work it out with me
5) relatively good looking
6) MUST LOVE MUSIC
7) doesnt think i'm fat, or even if he does, thinks it's beautiful.
VERDICT: such a man does not exist. *sigh :P

seven things that scare me
1) Losing someone i really love
2) being betrayed
3) people shouting at each other
4) SPIDERS
5) doing something i KNOW i shouldn't be doing
6) when there's a nagging pain somewhere on my or someone's body
7) hospitals

seven random songs at the moment
1) Put your records on - corrine bailey rae
2) Out of my head - Fastball
3) Beep - Will.i.am with PCD
4) C U when U get there - Coolio
5) Used to Love you - John Legend
6) California Dreamin' - Dana Owens a.k.a Queen Latifah
7) the damned cheerleading remix i did for 2/5. haha!

seven things i like the most
1) God
2) Theatre
3) Music
4) Guitars
5) my iPod
6) my bible
7) my 13 pairs of shoes
i actually like a lot of things, i just put the first 7 that came to my head.

seven things i plan to do before i die
1) get a tattoo
2) shave my head
3) produce an independent production
4) play to an arena full of people
5) preach the gospel to my parents
6) release my own album and hope it sells
7) have a photography exhibition
again i say, there are SO MANY things i want to do. ahha.

seven things i say the most
1) anyway
2) hahaha
3) dude!
4) bloody hell!
5) what the hell?
6) i love you
7) freakin'

seven people i want to do this. (SO DO IT! :P)
1) Melissa Lim
2) Raudhah Fatin
3) Dawn Tan (as in the VJ ONE! :D)
4) CRYSTAL SHI FU!
5) oddAudz
6) Farah (aka eva something something something. the latino name you've given yourself, i do not remember)
7) jeanie ke-beanie (though i DOUBT she will.)

gosh. that IS a waste of time. hahaha

tell me your favourite song

seasons of love

Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
moments so dear
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year

In daylight, in sunsets, in midnights,
in cups of coffee, In inches, in miles
in laughter in strife,

In Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure a year in the life

(chorus)
How about Love
how about love
how about love
measure in love
seasons of love
seasons of love

Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
journeys to plan
Five hundrend twenty five thousand
six hundred minutes
how do you measure the life of a woman
or a man

In truth that she learned
or in times that he cried
In the bridges he burned
or the way that she died

Its time now to sing out
though the story never ends
lets celebrate remember a year
in the life of friends

please go watch it :)

bridges he burned

sooner or later, it's going to be everywhere.

and so.

time for some damage control.

in daylights, in sunsets, in midnights in cups of coffee.

ramblings from station 1 (v1.2)

i was in the middle of typing a post and it performed an illegal operation and had to shut down.

GRRR.

anyway.

it was such a thoughtful post ok. i'm super irritated now.

and.

i wont exactly call it a crush. it's more like an unhealthy obssession. like smoking you know. haha. it's like a fleeting, impermanent state of mind i have entered. i dont exactly want to be out of it. to some extent i miss being a love sick puppy. haha. but i'm not manic depressive about it. it just plays in my mind over and over again. i bet half of you at least are just dying to know right? heh. not gonna tell. :P

but it'll be let go off soon. haha. SOON.

in some sense i try to block you out of my mind. each time i sit here in front of my work station typing away, i block you out and i dont see you anymore. but then, at the end of the day when i go home, squashed in between a balding, sweaty IT executive and a bitchy, "please come over here and punch my face cause i've had a bad day and i'm venting it all on the people standing next to me on the MRT" female secretary, my iPod plays an old love song and you're back in my mind. perhaps it is comfort that i can still think of you.

funny, they're playing 'Walking away" by Craig David on the radio now.

i want to run away.

back to work. sigh.

we did it all for love.

Ripped off from Rau (hello babes! :P)

things i have done in my short little dramatic life ...

(x) smoked a cigarette
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) skipped school
(x) seen someone die
( ) had a crush on one of your internet friends
( )been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten sushi
( ) been skiing
(x) been at a concert
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone/miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat/kangaroo
( ) won a contest
( ) run a red light/stop sign
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car crash
(x) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast/third person
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you looked
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
( ) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been on the opposite side of the country
(X) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose (mouth actually :P)
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue.
(x) danced in the rain
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach.
(x) crashed a party
( ) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) had a dream that you married someone
( ) glued your hand to something
( ) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 5 hours (of course :P)
(x) stayed up all night
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
( ) climbed a tree
( ) had a tree house
( ) scared to watch a scary movie alone
( ) believe in ghosts
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes. (not yet! but getting there. one day :P)
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school [its called a 'uniform'.] - totally man. i agree with Rau. :)
( ) gone streaking
( ) gone doorbell ditching
( ) played gay chicken
(x) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
( ) told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
( ) gone skinny dipping in a pool/hot tub
(x) been threatened to be kicked out of your house or been kicked out of your house

haha. :) ok yup. that's like, it. :)

silver side of a bullet

how can the world want me to change? they're the ones that stay the same.

sometimes people feel like they're not enough. you know, like, they're not good enough for this, not good enough to do that ... not good enough to be your significant other, and things like that. i've been in that position so many times that it's just tragic. with regards to easter, i must be the most useless director around. for one thing, i'm afraid of pushing my weight around. and i dunno how professional and theatre-ish to be. so well. i feel like i can't give my best.

anyway.

work's been more or less mundane. just phone calls, errands, phone calls, lunch, phonecalls, errands, the occasional MSN chat, and the long SMS conversations (you know who you are :P) and i've been real busy with Easter and all that. i'm tired already, but still motivated because it's all starting to take shape. and though i havent prayed much coz i keep falling asleep, i've been doing QT quite regularly, so i guess i'm ok. :) life's been good so far actually. i am very thankful.

i'm looking forward to easter weekend. :) am pontanging work on thurs, most likely, to go for Sports for Fund. i hope my leave works out :)

i keep seeing you in my mind. but with your skin and hair, i know you're off limits. i am just living in a fantasy world where i want reality to be what my imagination churns out. we could potentially look good together. potentially. but i'll never know, and i don't wanna know. if i knew, then walking away and leaving it aside would be so much more difficult. so perhaps ignorance, really is
bliss.

i havent't written a cryptic message like that for some time. WAHA
:)

i'm gonna go now and let your imaginations run free.

hands on redemption's side

i'm drowning in a sea of tags.

help!

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