i'm lovin' it :)  

the other life

i remember rohana saying something about our lives revolving around theatre. It certainly has these past 2 weeks, given that i am so used to going to school and doing my theatre everyday that when i woke up today and didnt have to go to school, it felt weird. i mean, i felt so directionless. i guess this is the feeling rohana was talking about. i sure as hell wldnt mind having my life revolve around the very thing i go to school for. Theatre.

i feel like i have accomplished so much, yet it is so little.

i have reached that stage in life where i want to make theatre the thing i do everyday. i know for sure that i wont settle for anything less than a career in theatre. anything to do with theatre is fine, even if i have to work my way up from the bottom. :)

when you really love something, you'll take it to the limit. :)

well, here's an update on significant things that have been happening:

the exam run for my sound piece was near perfect, save for one botched up sound cue, which i tried to save my ass from, but i dont know if i did. so now i await my results. i cant say i am not expecting an A, but then again there is reality to face. i want my A, i need it too. I know this is something i am truly passionate about. sound. i am biased, but there is no one other skill which would satisfy me more. :) i guess the grade doesnt really matter, but i wont deny i have expectations. haha. oh hell, just let me be honest and tell you i REALLY WANT THAT A.

thurs we were gathered on the slope near the PT and talking about the whole TSD situation in general. some people think the teachers are biased, yet others believe they are not. some feel like they've been neglected, while others feel the teachers were tremendous help. i admit that i stand on the teacher's side, though no doubt, some of these things are true. and i wont try to defend them. at the end of the day i guess it's what you make of it that really matters. if you feel a certain way about something, then i guess unless you try and find some way around it, or just live on, you'll be forever bitter about it. i mean, there really is nothing we can do about it.

but then again there is that issue of popularity. i agree that on tues, the way things went, with very little people watching and all, it would have been super demoralising. i watched as many as i could, but i kept getting dragged out for music fest auditions (we didnt get in btw) and so i missed vane's performance. To tell you the truth, i feel SUPER bad. and i almost wanted to hate shaun for dragging me to auditions. (NO I DON'T hate him. it's over i'm not angry anymore) i am truly sorry for missing that performance. well, there are the few exceptions in TSD that still make it wonderful :) you guys know who you are. :)

btw, there are 4 beautiful people on my handphone wall paper now :)

ok time is kinda running out and i have MANY essays due.

shall go and do them. :)

tomoro is Easter Sunday. PRAISE GOD! :)

ok bye bye :P

everything was done so you would come.

living on a prayer'

today i guess my slot was fairly productive. here's the full list of what i need to do, and what has been done:

1. night soundscape
2. korean women singing
3. jun yi's acting
4. chinese new year soundscape - done
5. marriage proposal scene
6. patriotic scene - done
7. war scene - halfway there
8. putting it all together

i have realised how much more things i need to get done. oh no. i am going to die.

shall not be lamenting. i will get it done. :)

there's also the list that's labelled homework.

now. let's not even go there.

anyway, i spent today doing nothing much productive. but i guess, wasted days will turn into productive nights. :P i came on to type lyrics to my new fave song :) hehe :D

Home - Micheal Buble

Another summer day has come and gone away
in Paris and Rome,
but i wanna go home
ooh

may be surrounded by a million people
i still feel all alone,
just wanna go home,
oh i miss you, you know

and i've been keeping all the letters that i wrote to you
each one a line or 2,
i'm fine baby, how are you?
i would send them but i know that it's just not enough
my words were cold and flat,
and you deserve more than that.

Another aeroplane, another sunny place
i'm lucky i know,
but i wanna go home
i've got to go home.

let me go home...
i'm just too far, from where you are,
i wanna come home

And i feel just like i'm living someone else's life,
it's like i just stepped outside, when everything was going right.
and i know just why you could not some along with me
this was not your dream, but you always believed in me

another winter day has come and gone away,
in either paris and rome
and i wanna go home, let me go home

and i'm surrounded by a million people
i still feel alone,
let me go home,
oh i miss you, you know.

let me go home...
i've had my run,
baby i'm done, i've got to go home.

let me go home ....
it'll all be alright
i'll be home tonight
i'm coming back home.

i love this song :)

shall now dedicate it too all those i havent seen in years, months, weeks, days, hours, mins. :)

now i go do my econs :)

gah. bye bye

no one loves me like you.

the road less travelled

you could say i'm back. but oh well. i guess i have to pop by once or twice to see how everything's going. :)

so hello world. :)

i have missed you. well, mebbe not.

at least, well, now i'm back from outer space.

but i walked in to find you here with that sad look upon your face.

there's only one thing that worries me alot right now. my IS. how i've been wasting all this time and not been doing anything remotely productive. help. it's in a bloody mess. and i could kill myself.

ok i shall not pull a raudhah and pretend to be a whiney teenager's blog.

i think i am innately either too helpful or too irritating. i always seem to find the wrong time to do or say the wrong things. is it just me? is it just coz i dun really know how to put my concern across? or should i just straighten up and be apathetic? it's this utter indecisiveness too that gets to me. sometimes i really don't know when to say what. and the helplessness, it's just so painful.

and anyway. bah humbug. it is over once i'm done with this post. note to self: talk less, listen more, think carefully.

i have been in a big band craze for sometime, but at this point in time, i have one favourite song. here are the lyrics. :) you'll see why i love it. :)

Honest Questions - Daniel Bedingfield

Can you see?
The honest questions in my heart this hour,
opening like a flower,
to the rain.

And do you know the silent sorrows of
a never ending journey
through the pain?

do you see a brighter day for me
another day
a day,
do you wonder what's in store for me
the cure for me,
the way.

oh look down, and see the tears i've cried,
the lives i've lived and the deaths i've died.
you died them too,
and all for me ...

You said,
I will pour the water down
upon a thirsty barren land
and streams will flow from the dust of
your bruised and broken soul
and you will grow like the grass
upon the fertile plains of asia
by the streams of living water
you will grow

Do you know?
my story from the start and do you know me?
like you've always told me
do you see?

the whispers in my heart against your kindness,
my eternal blindness,
do you see?

do you see a brighter day for me
another day
a day,
do you wonder what's in store for me
the cure for me,
the way.

oh look down, and see the tears i've cried,
the lives i've lived and the deaths i've died.
you died them too,
and all for me ...

You said,
I will pour the water down
upon a thirsty barren land
and streams will flow from the dust of
your bruised and broken soul
and you will grow like the grass
upon the fertile plains of asia
by the streams of living water
you will grow

you will grow.

i love you world. i really do :)

i've got the 3 most beautiful people on earth on my handphone wall paper.

without them, life would seem less fun.

rau, ana, nene.

bimblets! :)

we'll get through IS together :) even if it kills us :P we'll get through it.

you mean happiness to me.

:)

*group hug*

bwahaha.

i've learnt the greatest thing on earth.

suddenly my life doesnt seem such a waste.

bye bye world :)