take me baby, or leave me.
you know, it occured to me how self centered and self focused (for the lack of a better word) a blog tends to become. at least i know mine is ALL about me. :P but you guys read it anyway so heh. i dont mind the attention.
i was just reading someone's random blog post about pork floss buns. while the post wasnt about him per se, it was all about his ideals, his beliefs, and his thoughts. so i guess there is no way to actually have a blog that's not for the glory of self.
anyway.
this post is for the glory of God, or at least, i want it to be.
T retreat. let's start with that.
i didnt think that much would happen. honestly. i kinda felt so numb and hardened that i didnt think He could move me, much. well. let's put some things into perspective. like i shared with some of them, (and now with the rest of the world) i didnt know what to expect. for one, i was confused with the whole idea of expecting anyway. like for example, if you expect something to happen, then it will, because God knows and He will not disappoint you. but then, if you dont expect anything, then well, God surprises you. so either way, SOMETHING is bound to happen. i just didnt think it would be much. well. i guess i was wrong. naturally. :)
God did move me. it's not like i'm taking some 180 degree turn on my life that is. i'm just, changing some things, and taking on the next stage. i'm moving on, and beginning to live life like i was a younger person. pastor juliet said i act like a 40 year old. (do i?? ARGH.) i think it's time to let go and live life abit more :)
it's funny also, how God gave one image to 2 people, and it applied to all 3 of us. naturally the image wasnt given to me. (i dont think i'm gifted in that way anyway, i think there are other things i am gifted in.) if God's ready, then i guess, the question is who are we to stop Him? if not because He loved us and allowed us to choose, do you really think we can stop Him from moving us?
i realised how foolish human beings are. those of us who submit to the fact that there's no God or no higher being. consider how it is possible that things turn out the way they do, why people survive plane crashes, tsunamis and earthquakes, while other's just, well, die. human spirit? human tenacity? well ok, then where does the spirit, the tenacity come from? our souls? well, ok, then where did we inherit this soul? from out parents? then where did our parents get theirs? to cut long story (and possibly endless debate) short, there is no other way you can sufficiently answer the question of where humans came from without submitting to the possibility of a higher being.
why do i believe in a God? because there is NO WAY, i can be what i am today, NO WAY my attitudes and beliefs are moulded this way, NO WAY that i am what i am, if there was no higher being, no subconcious to rely on and live my life this way. without God i think i'm perfectly capable of ruthless things (no, wait, i KNOW i am capable of these things) that because of this HIGHER being, i do not do. and i'm not just talking about the christian God. i think, i'm willing to bet, that any of you out there who are religious, fervently or even vaguely, would agree with me that the higher being you believe in does prick your conscience and influence your actions.
the point is there is NO WAY the world can still be held together without some kinda higher force. we may be the most advanced in terms of evolution, but there is something bigger and higher. if we are the most advanced beings, then explain why we are still subject to the horrors of nature, whether man made or natural?
i know my ideas here may sound a little strange and flimsy, BUT, i'm standing by my beliefs in a God, because i just can't see any other way. and i am willing to believe there just IS NO OTHER WAY.
anyway. i miss 2/5 like HELL. i want to go back and visit. :P how are you guys man?! havent seen/heard/spoken to you guys in AGES. invite me to class party again!!! :P heh.
it seems that my thoughts have gone a little haywire and blurry after that thinking outloud you just read above. hmm. well. anyway, have you all seen the mac and PC ads? they're funny :) go to:
www.youtube.com and search for 'Apple and PC' or 'Mac and PC commercials'. effing hilarious :)
ok i gotta go, like work. though i dont know do what also. heh :P
mad cow: i AM NOT AN USHER. i would like to be/meet/marry the singer USHER, but i'm NOT ONE.
Lailin: hello. err. hello :P i dont know what else to say. enjoy geography? ... hmmm
ariane: did you survive PE? :P
Sharon: oui. stop playing with the smileys. :P
Stinky: good luck. with love. :P heh. you'll figure it out. i know you will.
rau: EH MOTHER! Pergi (i cant spell for shit.) manah? you disappeared lah dek! COME BACK!!
alP: haha. too many people hinting to me they'll be back soon. head is spinning.
Spatchcock: i want to meet you. soon. :( miss you lah!!!
k, work is done.
if you can believe in something bigger than yourself.