the way you look tonight.

i didnt go to church today. i think it was a combination of reasons, but most of it was cause i was completely zonked out. so tired that i slept a lot of the day away, because keeping awake after feeling totally and utterly exhausted is an impossible feat. i shall not complain ... but i have 2 greek essays to write. for sure i wont finish by tomoro. but i will finish it by tues, no matter what.

sleeping over in school unofficially for the first time is fun! for most of you who have heard brandon's story ... good for you. for those of you who havent. haha too bad. :P you'll find out soon enough. :)

conan's gig was brilliant. hotel california and photograph and sweet child are the best of the best. :) more gigs conan! i will go! :)

ANYWAY. tired me hasnt had much time to stop and think. which is well ... unhealthy. good things about the past few days is the fact i saw dong on sat, plus had a nice mask workshop and a good lunch and conan's gig ... sat is a day that i will not forget ... and will miss dearly. in anycase life is movin forward, i am getting old and being year 2 isnt the best feeling, but i suppose one i am ready to accept. and everything may not exactly be going fine and dandy, but at least i have everything i need to make each day worth while. and i think it's time i talked and spent more time with God. getting my spiritual life back is top of the agenda. i dont think i need to explain why.

my disappearance from church today didnt cause much of a stir. i suppose it's a good thing. this year i must do a few adjustments, like take a backseat in YLO for awhile. yes the work of the church is important. but if i dont do it, someone else will be called forth to. i mean, i'm not completely washing my hands off everything ... i just need to focus ... and dont worry abt my spiritual life. i will get it back. :)

the need to update blog seems too great for comfort. it shouldnt be a need, but just a want. but these past few days without blogging were not without reason. i would really like to see how long i can go without thinking of blogging. it might be an addiction. hehe. :P but well. it's one i honestly dont mind being in. unless it gets in the way then mebbe that's a different issue. :)

this blog is going to be one year old soon. haha. :)

k i need to go start on greeks. i will finish one essay tonight. :) and see if i have time to do the other. anyway.

bye bye.

the end is near, and so i face the final curtain.

to all you people. friends, lovers and other periphenelia.

That's What Friends Are For - Dionne Warwick

And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today and then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came and opened me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you
And then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
These words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
Ohh That's what friends are for

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me oh for sure
That's what friends are for
For good times and for bad times I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

with love.

me.

living in between time and space.

been feeling like life is in limbo these past few days. i havent done much of my work and i am still here blogging. but it really doesnt matter to me that i havent done my work. i want to waste my life away anyway. :P

ok the truth of the matter is. i havent been myself lately. i am noticing it by myself. alot of things i do these days are not characteristic of me at all. i am getting stressed, i want to leave this world for awhile and i want to go back into the finer recesses of my brain and find who i really am: a Child of God. a lot of the things causing all the shit in my brain and all the unhappiness and all the funny peripheral stuff is largely spiritual. so am sorry if i havent been nice to you or responsive.

'i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell.'

at the moment.

but anyway. today i declare it a good day because i ponned econs to meet calin. and i missed her so much! she liked the t-shirt! :) yay! am so very miraculously happy. :) was great to meet cal today! must come back more often then we can talk more too!!!

ok. i am like. high at this very point in time.

well. single song lyrics having passing through my head recently. it's like i have a jukebox in my head that plays my favourite lyrics. and i am plotting something, and getting more ideas on what to plot. haha :P yay! only 2 people ( i think!) know what i am plotting. not because i told them, but because haha ... it's a secret at the moment!!! :D but PLEASE SEND ME OR BURN ON CD FOR ME ALL THE PICTURES OF A52 THAT YOU HAVE.

THANK YOU!

a little sneak peak into my brain:

'just turn around, i'll be 2 steps behind ...'
'that's not the shape of my heart.'
'shucks i got econs and greeks to do. jlfiuriurgl;ruf;ksdn;uof ...'

haha ok i am just crappin'. chillio!

aint no sunshine.

we all fall down like toy soldiers.

i posted something yesterday which completely did not get published. GRR. blogger irritates me sometimes. oh well. i shall keep this blog alive by saying HELLO!

i suppose in recent days i have had a bout of sadness, being weary and tired of this world. but then when you make up your mind that things will be better, you pick yourself up. :D so yeah. i am happy. and you know what ... i have decided that blogging makes bad days worse. so i think i am going to help myself by only posting happy stuff. :D

like. monday is make use of cho day. :D

remember it and work with me k. hehe ... down with you cho!!! Bwhaha! :D

anyway. beautiful moments of today:

1. i was sitting in car looking out window and i am thinking: 'i miss my shi fu.' and then phone rings and i get a message from her! haha :) wonderfully beautifully ephemeral moment. :)

2. made up with best friend. 'nuff said.

3. went shopping with mother. :) and it was divine to just spend time with my mother. :D bought myself new chain. haha :)

well. it's been one hell of a day. now i must write a stupid lit essay. haha. oh hell.

i am going off now. :)

put yourself in my shoes.

walk through the valley in the shadow.

i discovered a wonderful place for me to think today. the roof top garden is a wonderful place for me to let go and just write ... and reflect and learn things about myself i never knew were real. i went there today and it felt surreal. it felt so wonderful i wished i'd stayed there longer. but hell, the world required my presence and so i transported myself back to civilization. not that i was that far away from it physically, but mentally i was alone and enjoying it.

anyway group is more or less settled. :) it's turning out to be quite nice i suppose though until we start improvs i have no clear idea how it's going to turn out. but i shall have faith and like work on it. oh btw, we're doing scottish play and i'm a little spooked about the curse. must keep in prayer!!! :)

ANYWAY. today seemed pretty cool ... i have an extremely long group name but my favourite part of it is 'meh-beth'. :P

these few days have been pretty intense for me. alot of things happening and all it's been tiring. dont get me wrong. all these things have been happening in my head. yesterday i was overwhelmed by the stars coz they were so pretty. and i just cldnt get a hold of myself. which was good coz i journalled it all down. :) and so i have begun a habit of writing down my innermost thoughts. and it's quite a fun process to remember all of this through a book.

i am unusually contented today. it's been one hell of a day and i'm tired but nonetheless quite happy. :)

i cant think of much to write anymore. so will end here.

you can look inside you.

going where my heart will take me.

i dunno what's up with me these few days, been suffering from bouts of extreme tiredness. like i've been worn out. it's difficult to keep focus and all in lessons coz i keep drifting off to sleep. and when i get home and plonk myself on the couch, i fall asleep and wake up to bathe and have dinner. and at night i's alright, completely awake. i suppose it's coz i've been sleeping around 1 am ... but it really is no big deal ... i mean ... mebbe i'm just really very worn out. i dunno. i havent got much mood for a lot of things recently.

well anyway, i broke an ikea stool, just by sitting on it. and fell on my butt. which was utterly embarassing. reminds me of how heavy i am. i need to start losing weight and stop eating. i shall have to do something about this before it gets out of hand.

well. in anycase, i'm hoping i dont have to pay for the stool. oh hell.

and i suppose that's why i am a little upset at alot of things. weight is one thing that i've been ranting and raving about these few years ... and for the first time in a long while i actually gained weight. of course, i feel like shit. but what the hell do i do?? i dunno. i cant exercise self control. i think breaking the stool is the final straw. my butt still aches.

another issue concerns my knee. there's an ongoing debate in my head whether i should do it in june or december. largely coz i dont wanna waste my post A level holiday sitting in a wheel chair not being able to do shit. i dunno. it's really bothering me. shucks.

and of course, the weight issue is linked. argh.

i suppose when i wonder about my self conciousness, it's really about my weight. i dunno. i mean. i keep trying to blame something for my self conciousness, but it doesnt help. i dunno. grr. i gotta stop saying i dunno.

man i'm sorry for a sad post one after another. i really dunno what's wrong with me these few days.

shucks i broke a stool.

oh gosh.

'Know that the spades are the swords of the soldiers,
know that the clubs are weapons of war.
Know that diamonds mean money for this art,
but that's not the shape of my heart.'
- Shape, Sugababes

i love this line.

signing off.

you can easily gamble your life away.

i still feel small when i stand beside the ocean.

which is amazing for me. i mean. HOW OFTEN DO I FEEL SMALL?!

it's quite overwhelming to read blogs and see how some people arent exactly having a good time as 2005 begins. it's also quite overwhelming to know that there's nothing you can do to help. but i know one thing's for sure. i am 'as constant as the northern star'.

'loving might be a mistake, but it's worth making'.

and. another thing; it's something i would wish for every year as each year begins.

i wanna grow old with you.

not just you, but you, you, you and everyone who can be counted as a 'you'.

'tell me who wants to look back on their youth and wonder where those years have gone?'

i certainly do not. i want to look back and know that my youth was shared with people i've known for years and years on end.

i wanna grow old with you.

well. Singapore is winning. :) down with indonesia!!! :D I LOVE SINGAPORE!!! :D

hehe. patriotism ... something i've lacked for a LONG LONG time. :)

my mother is coming home today. :) am very happy. :) yay! haha :)

i'm not expecting any gifts or souvenirs, but well. haha :) this is a wonderful world. :)

on to some other stuffs ...

i miss my best friend. ALOT. it doesnt help that she's always spending time with someone else. i dont wanna be whiny about it ... but what can i do? i just wanna spend time with my best friend, ALONE, so that at the very least if i need her help i can turn to her. how do you deal with a situation like this where you feel you've been deprived of spending time with someone close because she values love more than friendship?

i am being whiney. really.

but if i dont voice this i dont think the situation would change AT ALL. and i want it to. also because i must admit i am jealous. and it's difficult for me to tell this straight in her face because it's not my style. and i am in constant fear of losing the friendship. of her being angry with me and not wanting to share with me or be my friend anymore. i dont wanna make her choose between love and me. but i must say it upsets me that i cant spend time with her.

am i asking for too much?

that it devastated her when they split, that i was there if she needed me.

that when they got back together, i felt more or less happy yet i wasnt too sure if i could feel that way for real.

that she never calls anymore.

that when i invite her to school events she never turns up, but expects me to go to her events.

believe me i would. just that sometimes circumstances disallow me to. i know it's the same for her. well. shucks.

'take the pain killer, cycle on your bicycle, leave all this misery behind'

let's leave it as that shall we.

summer rain, trickling down your face again.

when you've no place to go.

this blog post title sounds vaguely tragic ... haha :P well this blog post isnt. in fact, it's gonna be good. :) it's been a great weekend so far. and possibly one that will never happen again. ok but due to the ephmeral nature of life, it can NEVER happen again. but well. i am trying desperately to make sense.

OG barbeque was quite fun for me. i mean, i thought it'd be weird and all, but thanks to reichen and cho and diane, dawn's sister, it was fun!!! but bulk of dinner came from a lagoon satay feast. i have never seen so much satay in front of me before!!! :) thanx to dawn's mother. :) it rocked. and walking back with shazzy, and we talked and all. am getting to know shazzy. haha :) very fun!!! i miss OGLing. haha. *pout*

but well. after that some of us rodeo OGLs and a couple of year ones went to play pool. we were planning to stay out the wholew night, and so we were looking for someone's house to sleep. essentially we played pool til we got tired of it. then we all trooped to macs. and in our half-sleep state, we decided to go for mid night movie. (mind you, it was already 2 something am) i ended up watching national treasure ... it's not bad. but. very ... cheesy. well. worth the money i suppose.

the movie ended at around 6 am ... and we all decided it was time to go home. most of us had already lapsed into zombie mode. haha. so the bunch of us all walked to the mrt and started to head home. we filled one row of seats and it was a funny sight. coz everyone was nodding off and like nearly falling off the seats. then we decided we'd tell jokes to keep awake. :) it was super lame. haha :) well. i reached home round about 7 am and like went straight to sleep. i was of course exhausted. :) but i wldnt have traded the whole night for sleep. :) i miss rodeo already.

anyway, i woke up round 1130 and went to slack around. went esplanade and rotted, then watched electra. which. was. quite .... dismal. the acting was compromised by the dance. too much focus on the kathkali, and little on the acting. as a result, it was quite crappy acting. the other complaint is the lighting, which wasnt all that good and hence it became quite hard to see anything at some points of time. well. it's over. i've got a contact for mask. so yay for me. :)

and. my IS is more or less changed, and it's quite steady now. no more panicking. :P

so now, being the tired one i am, i'm going off. good night!!! :)

i hope i live to see the day the pope gets high.

i hope you still feel small when you stand beside an ocean.

i went to the airport by myself today after a long and confusing dinner arrangement that didnt go through. but well. it was a good time spent by myself. coz i gave myself time to think. about all sorts of funny stuff and serious things. i have come to the conclusion i am not at the point of no return, so then it's like i can still save myself. :)

the more important realization today was definately how much i missed alot of people. :) well. haha. i tell you something k. i dread the day we all have to leave VJ for only one reason: i dont wanna leave all of you. :) but. i shall enjoy the days ahead. :)

anyway, 4 weeks to IS and i havent done anything!!!!! oh no!!!! sigh!!!!

haha. well. ok you know what ... i dunno what else to blog. hehe :P

i am a gonna leave you with a song:

I hope you dance - Lee Ann Womack

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

k imma gonna go now. no inspiration to blog. haha :P

we dont want it to stop.

bringin' on the heartache.

am so into Def Leppard now. thanx to conan they are the bomb now. i mean ... i'm suddenly into retro rock :P hehe.

anyway ... current buzz is: two steps behind.

Def Leppard - 2 Steps behind

Walk Away, If you want to.
It's Okay, if you need to.
You can run, but you can never hide
From the shadow that's creepin' up beside you.

There's a magic runnin' through your soul
But you can't have it all.

(Whatever you do) I'll be two steps behind you
(Wherever you go) I'll be there to remind you
That it only takes a minute of your precious time
To turn around, I'll be two steps behind.

Take the time, To think about it.
Just walk the line, you know you just can't fight it.
Take a look around, you'll see what you can find
Like the fire that's burnin' up inside me.

(Whatever you do) I'll be two steps behind you
(Wherever you go) I'll be there to remind you
That it only takes a minute of your precious time
To turn around, i'll be two steps behind you.

anyway. haha :) i lurve it.

This song is dedicated to all who know i care, all who dont know i care, and all who need care.

especially those i am worried for. i guess the message is in the song.

ok i am like ... done. :)

just turn around.

out! damned spot!

firstly, gala night and public p have been utterly brilliant. :) i'm lovin' it.

and i've figured out why i've been so down. and feeling off. :) so after this PERIOD, i'll feel better. :)

anyway: big shout out to REICHEN of RODEO of VOLLYWOOD 2005. orientation is over, but i hope you'll not forget the time we've spent together. :)

it's really late now, i'm tired but i dont wanna sleep. in fact, as of now i'm having dinner.

and it's difficult to chew and swallow. i'm worried about some people.

i know i shldnt worry, since there's nothing much i can do. but i still will. well. all i can do is pray i suppose.

why is something bad happening to all the people i love? this really sux big time.

this will sound so weird: but i wished something bad happened to me too. haha.

ok no. that's not a good thing to wish for. i unwish it. i wished my friends will feel better soon.

i need to start getting down to serious work. i shall pray about it and will myself to do it. WILL.

anyway, today i discovered i cant hold my bladder for too long anymore. it's a good thing i suppose. then i'll go toilet more often. :P

well. let's get off the subject.

ana you were brilliant tonight. :)

it's so cool. and i never thought i'd ever see brandon or esmonde half naked, but tonight my eyes were opened. :P

which reminds me. ana and rashez: he's NOT hot.

ok. i am going to stop posting in about 5 seconds.

ok that's it. i'm gone.

locked up they cant get me out.

the chio-et of the chio. CHO! it is a skirt btw!!! :P 

that's a good line to take it to the bridge.

* removed chunk* was cranky - 6th jan 2005

resolution: to be a better person. i tried. i think it's working. shall be nice to grace. i MUST.

i mean, i just felt so bad after reading her post card.

oh hell, leave it. let's talk about my current favourite song:

Robbie Williams - Strong

My breath smells of a thousand fags,
And when i'm drunk i dance like me dad.
I've started to dress abit like him.
Early morning when i wake up,
I look like casper without the make up
And that's a good line to take it to the bridge.

And you know and you know,
Coz my life's a mess.
And i'm trying to grow
So before i'm old i'll confess.

You think that i'm strong
You're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song
My song
My song

My breath's full of take aways,
Of Fantasies of easy lays.
The pause button's broke on my video.
And is this real, coz i feel fake,
Oprah Winfrey, rikki lake
Teach me things i dont need to know.

And you know and you know,
Coz my life's a mess.
and it's started to show,
So before i'm old i confess.

You think that i'm strong
You're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song
My song
My song

If I did it all again I'd be a nun
The rain was never cold when I was young
I'm still young; we're still young
Life's too short to be afraid
Step inside the sun

And you know and you know
'Cos my life's a mess
And I'm trying to grow

You think that I'm strong you're wrong
You're wrong
I'll sing my song my song

Life's too short to be afraid
So take a pill to numb the pain
You don't have to take the blame

I love robbie. :)

k i am going to go now. oh my gosh i'm a year 2. *gulp*

you'll be so high you'll be flying.

TEN random things about me:
1) I LOVE CHOCOLATES A LOT. (hehe hello dawn :P)
2) I LIKE ICE CREAM quite A LOT. ( hello dawn :D)
3) All my pets died terrible deaths. mebbe that's why i've given up on having animals. :P
4) I like the Blue and HILLARY DUFF ( and i'm not afriad to proclaim it. :D)
5) I'm an OGL. (which is nothing new really.)
6) I like skateboards and skatewear and skaters stuff but i cant skateboard coz of my knee.
7) I've had 5 knee dislocations and one OP. am in line for another.
8) I have a home too. and i love it. :)
9) I am illiterate when it comes to chinese but i can read people pretty well.
10) I want to live in New York. :D

NINE places I've visited:
1) Sydney and the Gold Coast
2) New York City
3) Boston, Massachussetts.
4) Los Angeles, California
5) Las Vegas, Nevada
6) Shang Hai
7) Bangkok
8) Kuala Lumpor
9) Phuket (i was like, 4. haha :P)

EIGHT things I want to do before I die:
1) Have sex (hey, it's normal k!)
2) See the world.
3) Bury my parents. (it's not morbid to want to be a good and filial daughter right?)
4) Get Dead Drunk and not remember it.
5) Write a few songs and become a pop star UNLIKE Hillary Duff. I like rock so i'll be a rock star.
6) Go on a mission trip and see parts of the world not usually seen.
7) Make people happy and be a blessing and guiding light.
8) Work in Theatre Full time and doing what i love.

SEVEN ways to win my heart:
1) Write me a song.
2) Romantic dinner
3) Love me even if i'm fat.
4) Be yourself around me. coz i will be myself around you too.
5) show me you can be trusted.
6) LOVE CHOCOLATES.
7) Dont hide from me how you feel.

SIX pet peeves:
1) Couples wearing the same shirts. "oh look at us, we're in love!!!"
2) Crowds and too many people.
3) Rude Singaporeans who make passing statements about singaporeans and think they are above them. and make them statements loud enough for people to hear, but at that tone like they're talking about it to themselves or to friends.
4) People making fun of my choice of music. (i know you know you're guilty!)
5) crummy service at restaurants or hotels or what shits ...
6) Quarelling. it makes me feel super sad.

FIVE things I'm afraid of:
1) Loneliness. but this isnt much of an issue anymore coz i got my new friend: MP3 player :D
2) Losing people.
3) Spiders. Anything with less than 2 legs and more than 6.
4) Hospitals. Long story. can ask me if you want.
5) Finding out that there's no God.

FOUR of my favorite things in my bedroom:
1) MY LOVELY COMPUTER!!!
2) MY GUITAR!!! MY BOYFRIEND!
3) MY wonderful sound system :D
4) My photo collection and Mao Tse Tung propaganda posters.

THREE things I do everyday:
1) Sleep
2) Go online
3) Toilet business

TWO things I want to do right now:
1) Be with my friends.
2) Play my guitar.

ONE person I want to see right now:
1) Brad Pitt in Troy. :D (ooh lust ... :))

into the new year and beyond.

first post of the new year. and the first day is almost over. in abt 1 hour, happy new year holds no more water. weird aint it, how the new year usually is only celebrated for one day. like the rest of the days arent new? haha. i'm just trying to make sense out of being senseless.

so the year 2004 has gone past, like a flash of lightning. but it's been an eventful, insightful and impactful year. and i know i'll never forget it.

2004 saw liting's first crush on a guy. i've never had crushes before. hehe. mebbe the lack of boys environment was the issue. i mean, put the past aside. last year saw 3 crushes on BOYS! i am amazed at myself. :P

2004 also saw alot of theatre, alot of plays, alot of theatrical experiences i will never forget. like A levels, crewing, slotting, dim sum dollies, mono, duos, group, lighting, and basically the things i love. haunted house, TSD master class, Public P, and all the shit on the sides. i loved every damned minute of it. :)

last year also brought a new chapter to my life in terms of relationships. breaking up was never easy, and i think i've healed alot this year. like to put it bluntly, and perhaps this will sound bitchy ... but i'm GLAD i'm over some people. i mean, sometimes when your pride gets too big for yourself to handle, dont ask why everyone around you falls away. and i'm glad you're no longer here to bother me. it's been some ride this year. i'm glad i fell off the seat next to you.

as for other relationships, crushes, people i loved, have come to love, and will continue to love, (some of you fall in all those categories :) ) it's really been a pleasure. there isnt anything in the world that can take your place. each of you are uniquely special to me. and all the beautiful relationships i've built this year. i know they'll be treasures of my heart for a long time. :)

for those i've failed to be enough of a friend to. i'm sorry. but i still love you all. :)

and for those i've been mean to. i'm sorry. i dont know how to take back all the hurt. but i really hope next year will be better. hope.

other highly eventful things have happened. it's magnitude is sheer and i am not able to write every moment down. but important things are: big fight with best friend, ankle busted during mono, fear of performance since then, my semi emotional break down, my spiritual highs and lows, the happy times, the love sick times, specific events like haunted house, mono, duo, a levels, important things like public p and all that. it's been such a ride! for this rollercoaster i'm glad that i was strapped in safely, and i made it.

so i guess this here's a big shout out to people:

the ole' timers:
stinky
PJ
duck
dog
michelle wu

vj peeps:
vane
dawn
crystal
cho
raudhah
rashez
corrie
shaun
sarah
rohana
xi jie
arika
grace
conan
michelle tan
vivienne

cmc peeps:
yihui
melly
audz
deb
jesher
alvin
pao yin
salene
chris ong
wei jun
sherilyn

and the rest of the world ...

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

it wouldnt have been the same without you! :)

well. i guess the year's gone. :) haha. it's been great.

2005 here i come! :)

well. bye bye. :)

it's hard to take courage.